RELEASED NOV 21, 2012  

 

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music and lyrics by Kara Johnstad / design by Linda Gavin  
 

 

 

The Child I Lost Within 
Flew Off On Butterfly Wings 
In Search Of An Angel.

 

I don't remember being born and I have yet to die. And yet I do remember that moment where the two collided. Life and death that is. They were only a heartbeat away. Only one blink slowed, and the eyes no longer opened. I was given this song to keep me breathing.The only hope you have is to fill it up with poetry and song and a never ending thirst for the bigger questions. 

 

 

A powerful voice of unbridled passion and purity. 

Poetry has never sounded so good. 

 

 
 
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SEARCHING FOR AN ANGEL is the ninth single in singer-songwriter Kara Johnstad's    NAKED THOUGHTS ALBUM series the newest series of songs and poems by Kara Johnstad created to celebrate the year of the Chinese Dragon. She is releasing in 2012 one song every month

  

 

"Kara knows how to guide us with her voice...
She knows that space of releasing deeply held pain,
surrendering to it, transforming it into joy and laughter.
Often through this deep let-go, new possibilities arise."
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"Truly, Poetry Has Never Sounded So Good." In spring 2012, Kara began releasing one new single of the album NAKED THOUGHTS each and every month through her Voice Your Essence™ eZine and live stream concerts, and available for download at all major music portals.  

 

 With more than 100 songs written, all of which she has produced and published under her own indie label, Kara Johnstad is an acclaimed artist with "... something of a female Leonard Cohen song writing sensibility with a bit of Renee Fleming mixed in, who is truly hard to categorize," as music critique Paul Wolfle best describes her unique signature sound.

    

I welcome you to my Naked Thoughts concert series.

 

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[November 28, 2012]
 
Greetings!  

 
Greetings! Today I welcome you to celebrate with me a huge leap! It has been a very powerful journey these past months releasing the Naked Thoughts album series.

This year, we released one single every month. So far, we are on SINGLE NUMBER 9, and how appropriate to bring out one of my most intimate songs ever,
Searching for an Angel.  
 
Linda Gavin delivered yet another stunning cover art and I send this song out into the world with a gentle smile on my lips and a beating heart. 

  
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NAKED THOUGHTS: THE STORY BEHIND 
THE NEW SINGLE "SEARCHING FOR AN ANGEL" 
 

 


 

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NAKED THOUGHTS: THE STORY BEHIND 
THE NEW SINGLE "SEARCHING FOR AN ANGEL" 


Written by Kara Johnstad

 

 

I don't remember being born and I have yet to die. And yet I do remember that  moment where the two collided. Life and death that is. They were only a heartbeat away. Only one blink slowed, and the eyes no longer opened.  

 

The child I lost within 
Flew off on butterfly wings 
 
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It was winter and my belly was round with hope. Another soul had decided to take up residence and I had already started to cancel concert dates down the road and get my head around the idea that not only would I gain weight , but gain the responsibility of caring for another life: to nurture, to nourish, to feed, to love.  

 

What is life? Where is the point of all beginnings? Why now?  I was all mixed up inside. Thrilled and nervous, resolute that all would and could, only go well.  

 

What message had she come to give me? I was living a life far from my homelands and in these moments, I missed my family. Proudly I carried on, planning and creating the next steps.  

 

The child I lost within 
Flew off on butterfly wings 
In search of an angel.
 
In the silence of the night 
Wrapped in lullabies 
 Wings colored in red  
 
The moon had risen. It was a cold dark night. I got up. 
Something beyond something was about to happen.  

 

She simply slipped away  
I searched for day and days 
To find my angel, to show me the way 
                                 
Shower me with sweet grace 
Give me your strength today 
Carry me up on the wings of faith  

 

The deeper the love 
The sharper the flesh aches 
The deeper the love 
The longer the shadow plays 
Like wild horses running across the plains 
Dusty winds burn my eyes again 
 
The deeper the love the 
The sharper the flesh aches 
The deeper the love 
The higher we set the stakes  
Heaven is pouring its strongest rains 
To wash the pain away  

 

The tides were turning. Yet, I was not expecting the moon that I had always looked to for guidance, to fall down into my navel.  
 
The lost stars of the night, 
Gathered round for her last flight 
My heart left for the moon 

 

I whispered out her name 
My heartbeat fluttered again 
One beat too soon 
 
There were no tears. Only disbelief. A surreal emptiness. As if I had gone back to mother earth. 
Become humus. Wet and dark.  

 

She simply slipped away  
I searched for day and days 
To find my angel, to show me the way  
 
Shower me with sweet grace 
Give me the strength today 
Carry me on wings of faith 

 

 

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Shower me with sweet grace 
Give me the strength today 
Carry me on wings of faith 
 
Why was this happening? 
Why had life chosen to give me life only to take it from me?  

 

The deeper the love 
The sharper the flesh aches 
The deeper the love 
The longer the shadow plays 
Like wild horses running 'cross the plains 
Dusty winds they burn my eyes again 

 

The deeper the love the 
The sharper the flesh aches 
The deeper the love 
The higher we set the stakes  
Heaven is pouring its strongest rains 
To wash the pain away 

 

I lay myself down on the ground and joined the leaves. I started to decompose. My breath slowed. The ground was cold. I didn't care. My heartbeat wandered. She was unsteady.  

 

I had been chosen by the gods to get a crash course in life meets death. Only this time it was happening deep within me, not without. Death was not happening in another city, not heralded by a phone call in the night, like when I lost my first lover, my grandparents, my father. In those times,  the news had always come via telephone.  

 

No, this time there was no ring and no familiar voice to usher in the event. This time death arrived on tiptoe. Snuck in when I was least expecting it.  Danced around my most precious gem. Tore at the word hope and life. My center, my belly, my flesh and bones were emptied. 

 

The moon rested behind my belly button to give me comfort, 
yet my heart grew faint.  
 
Searching for an angel 
The moon spinning towards an eclipse  
 
Searching for an angel 
Barren landscapes warp a rare sacred glimpse 
 
Searching for an angel 

So fragile the wings

So fragile, so fragile all these things

 
Searching for an angel 

Bellied fears and water colored dreams

 
Searching for an angel 
Earthly desires and hushed baby�s screams 

I lye cocooned wrapped in gossamer wings,

Fragile, so fragile all these things

 

  

Sadness can swallow you up when no one is looking.

I was given this song to keep me breathing. 

 

 
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The only hope you have is to fill it up with poetry and song
and a never ending thirst for the bigger questions. 

  

I sat for days at the piano. If it wasn't for pen and paper and my dear Mr. Steinway, I am not sure if I would have found away. Few can understand how deep the loss can go. It carves you out and makes you hollow.

 

It is like consciously trying to die step by step, to practice deep let go and surrendering to the seasons, learning compassion and acceptance, when everyone else around you is running after the newest bling bling and gathering awards and trophies.  It all seems so deftly unimportant. The more I live, the more I become an observer. It is hard to loose myself to a love affair the same as I did 20 years ago. A part of me lives already on the moon.

 

I am grateful that  by sharing my stories and songs, others will feel the trust to share theirs. Women have opened their hearts with me and shared with me their stories, each one different and yet each one touched me so deeply. It helped me to heal. It helped my heart grow stronger again.

 

"If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other." Mother Teresa

 

In the year of the Chinese Dragon, I am opening my journals to the world. The Naked Thoughts Album Series is available at all major download outlets. itunes, amazon and cdbaby.com. And also available directly from my homepage.

 

See you again next wee, same time, same place;
until then, stay gold. 

Kara  


  

 

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Cover Art for "Searching For An Angel" by Linda Gavin
Image: "Requiem For A Dream" by sattva / freedigitalphotos.net

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