The Singing Therapist 
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We are all meant to awaken and express our unique passions! 
That is life, love and creativity.

"What I do is me, for that I came."
--Wisdom from the poet 
Gerard Manley Hopkins
 
Issue No. 3 Oct 2014

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NEWS! NEWS! NEWS!
   
Website Update
Time for Springcleaning: I've updated my website 
with info on my work with Attachment and Couples and some new photos. Thanks webmaster Scott Eaton for your great work. Come by and take a look at kathleendunbar.net

 

Treats for the Soul
Wisdom Nuggets
Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it--Rumi  

 

Inspiring Movie 
I loved the 2012 indie movie Safety Not Guaranteed. The unexpected happens when a smalltime magazine crew interviews a guy who claims he can time travel.

 

KD'S Photos:
Benton 2014
















  




Poem by Kathleen

 

I want to tell you 

that you are okay

 

I want to be

the flower for you

the small diamond water

of the fountain

with the mossy stones

the clear song of the bird

that breaks your heart

enough

so that you begin 

to remember

it's okay to be alive

 

I know how hard it is

I have the scars, too

from the jagged monster

who chews its children

and leaves them

tense-boned and

half-alive

the monster of breaking

who fills small bodies

with knowledge so unspeakable

that the most golden of bells

can make no sound

 

but my love

if you keep hope 

behind the wall

it is no good

no good

you have to walk out

into the open now

though every sinew

curdles

for bone and will

have done their work

they have brought you

here

but they are 

useless creatures

when confronted 

with kindness

 

what was given to you

long ago--

the sad old spasm

of protection--

with that you

can never know honey

you can never truly

deeply

laugh

 

oh, those old wars

they are over and gone

instead

my warm hand is here

and I'll tell you 

over and over

with the eloquent language

of my fingers

my breath

my eyes that have seen

death and lived

I will tell you gladly

that we are home at last

alive most deeply

in our own dignity

 

though the hired warrior

has kept you walking

let him lay down

in the garden's earth now

and sumptuously rot

kindly let him come apart in

worm and root

till his hollowness

has healed into

the soft den of an animal

 

you have always been

the untarnishable gold bell

and the crazy wild heart of its

star-made clapper

and it is time, my love

for you to

ring

  

� Kathleen Dunbar 2011


In this Issue:
  • Book Review--2 Books on Sleep
  • Inspirational Music CD Review
  • Featured Article: A Mandala of Self--A Transformational Exercise For You!
  • Poem by Kathleen Dunbar
  • NEWS! Website Update!
  • Wisdom Nuggets--Rumi
  • Inspiring Movie Review
Artful Resources
Book Review: 
Two Books on Sleep: 

Rubin R. Naiman is a clinical psychologist specializing in sleep and dream medicine. In his book Healing Night, Dr. Naiman offers a counter-cultural view of sleep--by that I mean his recognition that when we run our lives like machines, expecting to hit the offswitch and go to sleep, we find ourselves spending restless nights. He calls upon biological and archetypal human needs that are neglected in mainstream sleep medicine like our relationship with darkness, letting go of the ego, and how we do-or don't-process our anxieties and feelings during the day. He integrates science and spirituality in a new way to look at the importance of sleep and dreaming. The second book I recommend is Dream Yoga and the Practice of Natural Light by Norbu Rinpoche. He gives instructions for developing clarity within the sleep and dream states in the Buddhist tradition.

Music Review
One of my all time favorite relaxing albums is Carry the Gift by R. Carlos Nakai and William Eaton. The sounds of Nakai's Native American flute and Eaton's hand-made instruments take you on a soothing, refreshing, meditative journey. Each song has the delights, beauty, and idiosyncratic turnings of a river. If it was an old-school LP I would have long ago worn it out--I love this album!

A Mandala of Self

 

This is a wonderful exercise of Transformation and Finding Your True Self
It's fun, it works, and it draws on practices that go way back in our human history in our search for self. The circle is the oldest symbol of the self. And a mandala is a wonderful "polaroid" of where you are at any given moment--a mirror of your journey--and one that you can shape and change as you learn about yourself.

 

What you need:

  • Create a circle at least 12 inches across by using string, a plain necklace or string of beads, or draw a circle on a large piece of paper.
  • Have handy a collection of 10 or more objects that could all fit inside the circle, such as: stones, shells, leaves, beads, small objects from your altar--if you are doing this outside, use anything handy, even an old bottle cap you find lying around.
  • An issue, edge, question or dilemma in your life.

What to do:

  • Sit quietly before your empty circle with your collection of objects at hand.
  • Bring into mind your dilemma.
  • Mindfully place into your circle, one by one, as they occur to you, the different aspects of the situation.
  • Allow yourself to be playful, irrational, dreamy, and spontaneous--pick a stone for whatever comes up, even if you think it's silly or not related, and especially include anything that comes up that you'd like to censor or push back down into your unconscious (that's often the most juicy stuff!)
  • Take all the time you need to place the stones or other objects.
  • When all the stones are "placed," close your eyes for a while and just rest.

For example: Let's say the issue is standing up to a challenging boss. Your mandala could contain: A stone for The Boss, a stone representing the Person In Your Family of Origin Who Was Like Your Boss, a stone for the message you learned growing up of Having To Stuff Your Feelings To Be Safe, a stone for your Longing To Be Powerful, a stone for your secret desire to say "Fuck Off!" then another stone for Guilt for having the Fuck Off stone at all (nice people don't say that, right?), a stone for your Power, a stone for your Longing For A Different Job, a stone for the Critic part of you that says "You should be able to deal with this better than you are," a stone for your Compassionate Heart, a stone for your Ability To Understand Other People's Suffering, and a stone for All The People Who Believe In You these days.

 

  • Now you are ready to "look" at your mandala in a right-brain way that allows what's most important to "pop." This is how you do it--Mostly you keep your eyes closed. So, start with your eyes closed for about 10-20 seconds, then open your eyes for a literally two-second view of your mandala and then close your eyes immediately. Keep your eyes closed for another 10-20 seconds and take another two-second blink. Do this 3-5 times, or until something "pops" or "grabs you" or "stands out." This could be: a particular stone, a color, the placement of the stones, the relationship of two stones to one another, or a sense that something's missing.
  • When we look in this way, we're not so predisposed to "try to figure it out" with the left brain which usually gives us the same unhelpful answers anyway or leads to a dead end full of self-perpetuating anxiety. Instead you're using your right brain to help you out. The wonderful thing about the right brain is that it offers new and creative perspectives and answers. The left brain is about making lists of what is already known and trying to safely keep that going. A musical example is that the left brain is great for learning scales, a very necessary thing, but not for creating a piece of music or giving a heartfelt performance. We need both left and right brain perspectives. So in our self-mandala we honor the left brain (and keep it satisfied) by listing all of the different parts of a dilemma, and then switch over to the right brain's ability to look at things from many perspectives while remaining kind, heartfelt, critic-free, connective, cooperative and creative. The right brain can take all those left brain detailed lists and spontaneously offer a felt sense "Eureka! Here's a healing perspective on that difficulty we're having!"
  • Okay, so let yourself "blink" three or four times and playfully notice what "pops" out of the mandala.

For example: Here are some things that may "pop" out of the difficult boss mandala: the Fuck Off stone, which you had reluctantly added, is rather large and on the outer edge of the circle, while the Guilt stone has taken center stage, but interestingly what has "popped" for you is that "unbeknownst to you"--right next to Fuck Off you have placed the stone for All The People Who Believe In You.

 

  • Allow yourself to sit with the new "take" on your situation.You may feel some fresh sense. Or it may feel uncomfortable--Great! Just let it all cook. So, take a break and come back to it later in the day, or even better, come back tomorrow.
  • Okay, you've taken a break. Now come back with fresh eyes. What do you see?

For example: This morning you may notice that the Fuck Off stone is a really cool stone. It's bigger than you thought you'd allow yourself to have, and it's got some really cool colors--how about all that red! Suddenly the center of your mandala feels "off." You begin to feel like moving two stones to the center--Fuck Off and People Who Believe In You, and you put the Guilt to the side. Gee, that's interesting that you naturally put Guilt next to the Person In Your Family of Origin Who Was Like Your Boss. So you move the two stones to the center, and suddenly Fuck Off starts to feel different . . . you don't know how, but it does.

 

  • Take another break and come back to it later and sit with the felt sense of what you discover when you return. Feel free to move the stones around when you come back--that's about getting a new perspective. You may also want to add stones. 

For example: The next day, with fresh eyes, you may see that somehow the configuration of the two stones in the center--Fuck Off and All The People Who Believe In You--feel really supportive--ie, "magically" there's a sense of "rightness" about the whole mandala. Then you notice that something is still missing. You sit quietly meditative with the felt sense of "something else wants to come in" and hold a new stone from the pile near your mandala. Then it comes to you--the felt sense for this new stone, it's energy that the mandala--that you--are drawing to you is: It's Okay For You To Express, and you add that stone. OR: maybe you have all that you need already in your mandala--you realize that Fuck Off is really It's Okay For You To Express, but it needs All The People Who Believe In You near it in order be clear and direct before you rename this energy. In any case, you can thank yourself for having a Fuck Off stone--because that's a really human feeling, it's an important clue to your boundaries, and it's lead you to your truth.

 

  • Take the felt sense of your new perspective on a spin. 

For example: So back at work, you sit quietly at your desk with eyes closed (no one sees you) and call to you the felt sense of It's Okay For You To Express AND All The People Who Believe In You. Isn't that interesting--you feel more grounded, feel your feet, feel calmer. You remember a friend of yours who recently told you how much your way of expressing was unique and clear. You're a bit anxious, but you also feel the truth of what your friend says in your heart. Then you go in to the meeting with the boss and express yourself, and something different happens--not because the boss is different, but because YOU are more in alignment with yourself! Congratulations!

 

Good luck! Thanks for stopping by! And feel free to let me know about your experiences with this exercise.

 

Warmly, Kathleen

 

PS: Kudos to all the traditions that I've drawn this exercise from: Alberto Villoldo, Hakomi, Jon Eisman's Re-Creation of the Self, Emily Conrad's Continuum, Robert A. Johnson, Stan Grof, the medieval alchemist crowd, some Jungian folks, and every human who's ever looked into the sacred circle of the self.

 

About Kathleen 

I call my therapy practice River of Life Healing Arts. I call it this because the river, like the soul, has its own wisdom in finding its path. In our healing work together, I invite you to join me in the flow of life, and fully experience the wise currents of your own being. In indigenous traditions there is a sacred process people go through when they are ready to let go of their old, hurting stories and to embrace their new story. This is the practice of transformation.

 

When we take the leap to be our true selves, the road rises to support us in ways that we couldn't have imagined. I'll help you learn to hear, trust and follow your wisdom, and tap into your heartfelt and gut-sense knowing. Together we will find your new and beautiful story.

 

I've learned transformation, respect and love from the inside-out. What I know in my bones and heart I offer to you: I'm a Certified Hakomi Therapist; I use Sensorimotor Psychotherapy and Attachment work to resolve trauma; our palette includes movement, Continuum, imagery, creative expression, sand tray, dreamwork, indigenous perspectives, energy work and biodynamic cranial-sacral work. I love working with both individuals and couples.

As a performer and singer-song writer with three CDs, I know the thrill of expression and also what we must face in ourselves in order to truly express. I am dedicated to helping my clients find, support and be alive in whatever they are passionate about bringing forth in their lives. Find me at www.kathleendunbar.net

Kathleen Dunbar, LMFT39880, Certified Hakomi Therapist    
PHONE:  415/668-5130 
16 Blake Street, San Francisco, CA 94118
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Featured article and poetry by Kathleen Dunbar
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