The painting process is a template of our life. What happens between the paper and us is a representation of our relationship with our self. How intimate can we be with our self? How honest can we be? When do we use our mind /thinking to fill in the space between our truth and ourselves at the moment? It happens so subtly, without our knowing - based on our conditioning. We interpret every sensation, feeling and image. The painting reveals tightness. We feel stuck and wonder why we are here. We feel tired and believe we need to lie down. We are hungry and need to eat or we believe we are finished and need to start anew. We have lost connection to ourselves; to what is calling to be expressed.
But we have a choice.
THIS PROCESS DOES NOT ALLOW US TO REST HERE FOR TOO LONG. We can quit and say: this is not for me. We can seek to control the situation and thus effort at painting a product, or we can learn to tolerate the discomfort that arises as we bump up against ourselves. We then build a capacity to hold more of ourselves, which brings new possibilities:
Tired and low energy are some of the symptoms experienced from the inner tension between what your creativity needs and what you think you want (habit). This inner tension needs to be felt and given permission to express: (scribble paintings can activate and bring those buried emotions to the surface-) to then see your painting with new eyes.
Another way we want to avoid our discomfort is to say we are finished, hoping the next painting will enliven us again. Instead, can we ask: where have we become fixed? How can we become more fluid and loose?
This painting process confronts us with our self-limiting habits that leave us disconnected and separate from our true nature.
It reminds us who we are, inviting us to open the bud and blossom.
