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Dear Ones,
In a meditation about two weeks ago, I heard the question: Are you willing to be as large and as vast as you are? I took it in as a koan, a question to be lived and not meant for the mind to answer, for the egoic mind can take this question and turn itself into knots trying to figure it out: How do I be what i already am? How am I not what I already am? What am I if I am not what I am?
See what I mean? The invitation here is if you take this question for yourself, invite and allow it to 'do' you and 'un-do' you... it will. I am seeing that many people in my life, and perhaps on the planet right now, are being invited into this koanic inquiry. Whether we realize it or not, we are being called to stretch way beyond who and what we think we are, beyond what we have been conditioned to believe we are or are not, beyond any and all limitations we may hold about what is possible for us and for the planet. We are being invited to consider and open to the possibility that anything is possible, even miracles. Beyond our known horizons, there is far more vastness and life than we can now imagine!
This inquiry comes in tandem with the ongoing collapse of known structures that is going on in the world, that we are witnessing daily in the news as well as within us and in our own lives, and the lives of people we know and love. Collapsing known realities are initiations that can be very difficult, scary, painful, and very threatening to life as we know it. If we resist, it is much much harder. If we can allow, be with what is, breathe through the birthing contractions even while it feels like this is death happening, a shift happens in our awareness of what is going on.
This koan question offers a beautiful, comforting way to be engaged in what's happening when our egos may be struggling with fear and contraction as our known world around and within us may be coming apart and changing so rapidly. This koan is pointing us beyond the Known, beyond what our egoic minds have created as limits, beyond all of our conditioning, our beliefs, and past experiences.
This week my sweet friend described holding her freshly born granddaughter for the first time. She told me that as she held her, she witnessed this tiny one moving and wiggling and stretching herself into this much larger world than she had just come from. I was so moved as I listened, recalled my own tiny ones as they did that, too, and realized that each of us is now in this same unfolding, stretching, and expanding into a much larger space than we have ever known!
As the old structures come down, outside and inside, there is spaciousness beyond our imaginings. While ego's impulse may be to contract, this sacred question is the invitation to begin to wiggle and stretch and reach beyond where we formerly felt a wall or a boundary within, into a much vaster expanse of spaciousness for our precious Being to expand into.
The Great Heart has no limits. Our own vulnerable human heart may feel small and conditioned to be fearful and self-protecting. It's useful to know that it is nested in this Great Heart that is vastness itself, not separate from this vastness.
So! Are you willing to be as large and as vast as you are? Are you curious to find out what that might be?
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