Q: P'taah, you've often talked about health, yet in the real world, in my real world, when something comes up, I need a little more specific help.
I'll start with a question that came from someone else because it's about a particular illness, but my question really is how, when these illnesses occur, you go about looking for the beliefs that underlie them.
The person said "I've had gall bladder stones continuously for the past 6-7 years and they cause a tremendous amount of pain. They run in my family. The doctor calls it genetic. Apparently the only options seem to be to have the gall bladder surgically removed. What's the meaning of these stones, also in relation to my family? Someone told they appear in people who have thoughts about revenge, which would actually be true for me, and how best to deal with them?"
P'taah: All right, let us look at this. This is excellent because one of the miracles, really, is that the body will manifest its dis-easement in a fashion that allows you to be a detective, allows you to look at what the part of the body represents and how that translates into your ideas about yourself and your realty.
Now, that which is gall, gall stones, what does this really mean? This is usually about an idea-construct which includes ideas of resentment, of unfair, of not receiving what you think you should be receiving and that it is not good that somebody else has what you want.
Now, this is a deeper thing than just the jealousy. Rather it is even an idea that somebody else should be punished because they have what you deserved and that could be a way of life, it could be physical material wealth, it could be in terms of relationships. So there is this resentment with an idea that if you could, you would punish somebody. Or not even somebody, but even the idea called government or authority.
And all of this stems from the idea of being powerless to make it right. So when you have this idea of being powerless, there comes up a feeling. Of course, all of it is about not being worthy because if you were worthy enough then the thing that you feel deprived of would be yours. There's also that idea of being powerless to change it.
So these ideas, these very deep-seated ideas, bring forth an emotional reaction. That is why we say, look at the feeling engendered by the belief. Now we will say again for those who have not heard, we will look at this idea that there are 4 basic beliefs on which you base your ideas of who you are and translate that out into your world.
And these 4 beliefs are :
- I am not enough or I am not worthy.
- I am powerless, and that usually translates into, "I am powerless to change myself or anything else."
- Love equals pain, and that can translate as, "Every time I love somebody, I get hurt," or "Every time I love somebody, they leave or die." etc.
- And the fourth is that my world is not a safe place. And of course more and more people feel that they are powerless in that idea that the world is not safe.
So, these are the 4 basic beliefs that engender the physical manifestations called dis-easement.
Now there are 4 keys to transforming these fears and the feelings:
The first key is that you must acknowledge that you create your own reality absolutely, that you are not victim. And as you can acknowledge that you create it, then you are in the place of power to create change.
The second key is that you can only create this change, this transformation of the feelings, of the fear, in the Now moment. That is, the feelings that you had yesterday, you do not have them now. It is only in the Now of whatever is occurring that you can transform the reality. Now is the power place of choice, that is, acknowledging that you are not a victim and that in this Now you have a choice either to go along in the same old ways or to stop and deal with whatever it is.
The third key is that you can only transform these feelings in the Now Moment of feeling, actually being in the feeling, not as an intellectual concept. If you could change simply by your mind, by the intellect, then you would have done so already because none of you really like this living in pain and fear. So all of this is energetic work and your feelings, your emotions, are energy. So to change the energy, you must be in it.
And the fourth key is that you can only transform it by embracing it, allowing it, acknowledging the reality of it, and making it all right to have these feelings, to have this pain. Embracing. The law of the universe states that "What you resist, persists absolutely." So you can acknowledge that you are in fear or pain and then immediately push it away or decide that you do not want to deal with it right now, nor do you want anybody else to know that this is the reality of it. Well, the more you do that, the more it is and that of course is what creates the physical dis-easement in the first place. So the embracement is the key here.
But how do you embrace the feeling, the fear, the pain? Well, we have 4 keys for that too.
Four steps to transform the fear and pain:
The first is to breathe. This is most important because as everything is in the physical reality as it is in the greater non-physical reality, the breath in the physical reality is life, and life in the non-physical, or life in the greater reality, indeed is Goddess-God. It is the Source. It is that indefinable Divine Intelligence. So the breath represents the connectedness to the All-That-Is. So breathe. Usually when you get into a state of fear and pain, you stop breathing. The breathing becomes very shallow and you are kind of locking yourself away in this fear and pain without the allowance of assistance that comes with this place of non-separation and total connectedness with the Divine, or the All-That-Is, or whatever you want to call it. So the first step is breathe. Breathe into the feeling, or breathe into the pain. Breathe!
The second step is to imagine there's a little boy or girl that lives within you that has always been afraid, because this fear and pain is not of the rational adult who knows, "I am the Perfect and Eternal Expression of the Source." You see? This fear and pain comes from your birth, really, from your early childhood, from the first dramas and traumas of being in this world. So, it is this little portion of you that has brought forth the pain and fear and indeed brought it forth into adulthood. These old beliefs, these hereditary beliefs of family mythology even.
So, the second step is to visualize a little you, probably aged about 3-4, but you know, it does not matter what age. It can be much older. But the first is to look at this little portion of you that is in such fear and pain, who is lonely, who feels totally separated from everything, who is terrified of this aloneness and who is heart broken. Heart broken. And if you see this little one standing in front of you, or this little portion of you that you can acknowledge even as an adult who is in fear and pain, automatically you step toward this one to acknowledge, to say, "I see you."
And the third step is then to embrace this little one, and let us call this little one, "The Fear and The Pain." This little portion of you represents all of the fear and all of the pain that you have ever experienced in your entire life, in all lifetimes, really. So you would step forth and you would put your arms around this one.
And then the fourth step is to say, "Thank you for being with me. I love you absolutely. And when we are together like this, we are one. We are totally connected with the All-That-Is and I will never leave you. I will never ignore you. I will never banish you. We are together and we are Home." So as you are in the embracement of that fear and pain that we call this little portion of you, of yourself, so then as you merge, as you embrace, what you are doing is changing the frequency, changing the energy frequency of fear and pain, to allow it into wholeness, into oneness, into love, into the All-That-Is. Into the perfection, into the eternal Nowness, Is-ness.
So the final 4 steps--first to breath, next to visualize the fear and pain as a portion of you or a baby-you, the third is to reach out to embrace, and the fourth is simply to say "Thank you for the gift that you are to me. I love you." So that is the "how to do."
Q: And the interesting thing about that--and it chokes me up every time you go through it, P'taah. Every single time, it gets me--never, nowhere in there do you say, "I am getting rid of the dis-easement." So what you are working on is the pain and the fear and that's the thing that needs to be addressed first.
P'taah: You know, beloved, also it is very beneficial when you look at the dis-easement not as something to be got rid of, but as a gift. Because in a way you have an opportunity to transform the old beliefs and the emotional reaction to those old beliefs in the Nowness, as the emotion come forth. And when you do not acknowledge, when you do not deal with it, the body then begins to manifest it so that you can stop and look at it.
It is your body saying, "Will you please stop now and will you deal with these issues so that we may go on." So where you can look at the dis-easement and say, "Thank you for this opportunity that you have created for me to really come to grips with these old ideas and to embrace the emotion that these old ideas create so that I may be aligned, that I may be in that joy of balance, which is the joy of life.
Q: So, when the person who asked the question asked about how you deal with the pain, you pretty much covered that. He wants to know if it's okay to surgically remove the gall bladder and my guessing from what you're saying...
P'taah: You know, beloved, all of it is a choice. It is simply not necessary.
Q: Right, it will just manifest in some other way were that to be his choice. Correct?
P'taah: Indeed.
Q: Exactly. Okay, thank you. That was beautiful. I love you.
P'taah: Ditto, ditto, beloved.
P'taah
