Light, I thought. Lighting candles would help us demarcate it.

It was a good idea in theory. But when the girls were upstairs, getting dressed for a dance or suited up for soccer, and I'd call them to come down to help light candles, they'd squawk about the interruption. "It's just a few minutes," I pled. But they boisterously protested and it made for a not-very-peaceful welcome to Shabbat. I ached over it and felt like a bad Jew for the first time in my life.

In the years since then, now that the girls live on their own, the candles still help me identify this separateness. They are my visual and spiritual image of Shabbat. I think of them as a metaphor for our constantly changing, always-in-motion souls that emanate from the wick of the candle, dependent on it but distinct, as we are in our relationship with the Divine. Lighting the candles - or switching them on a battery operated set if we are going out - reminds me that we are in soul time of the week. Without it, we are bodies without a soul.

To a soul-filled Shabbat. May you find something beautiful and distinctive from sunset to sunset.

ELLEN BLUM BARISH has been an active member of the Beth Emet community in a variety of ways since she and her husband, David became members in 1996. She became a bat mitzvah in her late 30s and taught fifth grade religious school for several years. Ellen regularly attends Rabbi London's Friday Torah study and Beyond Om: Spiritual Practice for the Jewish Soul gatherings and she is a member of the Beth Emet board. Outside of the synagogue, Ellen is an essayist and editor of Thread: A Literary Publication and she teaches writing at Northwestern and North Park University and she is a private writing coach. Her features and essays have appeared in Newsweek, Self, The Chicago Tribune, Tablet, Literary Mama, Full Grown People, and have aired on Chicago Public Radio. One of her pieces earned an honorable mention in Tiferet, an essay she will be reading at the upcoming "Stories from the House of Truth" evening of storytelling that Ellen is curating on June 18th at Beth Emet. Her book of essays on family life, Views from the Home Office Window was published in 2007. Ellen will be reading from this collection on Monday, February 23rd at the Chicago Jewish Authors Literary Series at Max and Benny's in Northbrook at 7 pm. For more about Ellen, go to www.ellenblumbarish.com.