Poetic Medicine Journal 
Spring 2016
Letter
May 3, 2016

Dear Poetic Medicine Friend,

It is my pleasure to share the Spring edition of
The Poetic Medicine Journal.
 
If You Don't Know the Person I Am...
This journal is a significant expression of what we at IPM treasure and hold as valuable to this work--to show you a sense and spirit of community; we believe that our connection with one another is nourished and healed by creativity, with poetry and poem-making.
 
The opening stanza of William Stafford's poem, A Ritual to Read to Each Other says it perfectly. I have spoken these lines across the United States, in fact, I've spoken them out loud to people throughout the world:
 
If you don't know the kind of person I am
and I don't know the kind of person you are
a pattern that others made may prevail in the world
and following the wrong god home we may miss our star.
 
I wish that I could "bottle" the sighs and the nods of the head that accompany hearing these lines. This sound and gesture are the essence of it all. People are keenly aware when they hear these lines that it is possible to see one another in a different way than we usually do.
 
What I love is the singularity of the word "person" placed within the same sentence as the all-encompassing word, "we."
 
Poetry Partners: Stories of Arrival & Unlocked Poetry
Please consider this the joining of a sovereign, inviolable nature of a person within the profound connection of "we" as you read Merna Ann Hecht's essay about her work (along with Carrie Stradley) in Stories of Arrival: Immigrant and Refugee Youth Voices, a poetry project.
 
Merna and Carrie give generative respect to refugee and immigrant youth, a respect that helps them to express their unique voices. It's not only respect; it is much more, it is a celebration of these young people. Young teens, many of whom have experienced great trauma, are nevertheless, finding a true star to follow.
 
If we listened more closely to their stories, their poems, these refugee and immigrant youth, we would benefit from their desire for peace, their innate resilience, their deep love of country and of the land upon which their feet walk. We will become better persons and find how essential it is to treasure inclusive community.
 
Wayne Gilbert, who leads the Unlocked Poetry program, brings love to men incarcerated at Sterling Correctional Facility. Love to prisoners? What I mean by this is not only a feeling of love but the way love asks of someone to do real and difficult inner work that will make them a more whole person.
 
Wayne's relationship with the men at Sterling, exploring poems with them, is like this: it lifts up the inner work of love. Wayne says:
 
As a man dealing with my own issues related to Parkinson's Disease and aging, I am filled with respect for them. I am challenged to take my own life struggles to new depths of transformation, and inspired to hear the voice of my own heart's deepest affections. Their furious grace accompanies me on my own journey now, and, for that, I am most grateful!
 
Together, in order to delve deeper into authenticity, they are working to follow a true star; rather than be chained to the pattern made by others, made by society and culture about prisoners, about illness.  
 
A Community of Poets: Lisa Bertsch and Joe Milosch
Life takes on more meaning with the healing art of poem-making. You'll see this in the essays by Lisa Bertsch and Joe Milosch who are featured in the Community of Poets portion of the PMJ.
 
Lisa and Joe show us how very different traumas evoked in their lives a deeper dig for meaning.  
 
For Joe, meaning is made in the long process of recovering from the experience of the Vietnam War; and by not turning away from the long-term illness of his beloved wife, Patsy. We learn of Joe's gift of turning towards her.
 
For Lisa, following a severe spinal injury, her pathway to reclaim her wholeness, her voice and live with a spirit of unfettered grace that brings more beauty to the world. We learn about spaciousness and joy.
 
For both, Joe and Lisa, that search for and discovery of meaning is deeply influenced by poem-making and the ways each found to help others.
 
Reflections on Lives that Matter in My Life & Work
In this issue I made a choice to share some very significant losses that have occurred in my life since Autumn. I write about three mentors and friends, all of whom have died since September: Jeremy Tarcher, Stephen Levine and Jim Olson.
 
I write with a sense of intimacy, sharing how each impacted my life, and for you here, perhaps, to learn how they helped to make this poetry therapy work even possible; certainly how they made me better.
 
Much of what I write is a deep appreciation for the gifts that they brought to life, to others. In grieving their departure from my life, I acknowledge a longing in me for you to know them.
 
I made a decision to reveal a few difficult details, especially about one person and our relationship, how it was impacted by alcohol.
 
This may all sound like too much; yet this comes out of a commitment to live these lines I put at the start of my letter:
 
If you don't know the kind of person I am
and I don't know the kind of person you are
a pattern that others made may prevail in the world
and following the wrong god home we may miss our star.
 
Read these essays to inspire your own capacity to see and know deeply the people you treasure. I'm actually trusting that each of my friends would understand, even approve.
 
The Nature of the Poetic Medicine Journal
 
The universe is not made up of atoms
it is made up of stories.    
 
Muriel Rukeyser
 
This deep and lengthy sharing about these mentors brings me to reflect on another important decision I made years ago conceiving this Journal.
 
I am aware of how quickly people want to receive information these days. They want to receive it and move on. Our current technology and relationship to the plethora of technological means to access that information pushes hard on this intense sense of immediacy. I am not yet convinced that this technology doesn't do damage to our ability to sustain attention.
 
I felt a need to push the other way. That is, to take time to tell the varied stories that Poetic Medicine has to tell. It's not only time to share stories but to create a deep way by which you can learn from them--in a way that is useful, that encourages and informs your personal and professional life.
 
So this is not a newsletter, it's an on-line journal!

The intention of it, the essence of it is relational, rather than transactional. The journal is a generous long walk. Please take your time "walking" with it.
 
Become a Supporting Friend of the Institute
You may not know this but all of the work done by The Institute for Poetic Medicine is dependent on support of someone who cares. What is that support all about?  
 
The support of our poetry partners.
 
The support of people who help us shine.
 
For instance, the designer of this Poetic Medicine Journal and IPM's print materials, Valerie Knight; I've worked with Val for eighteen years and she certainly makes this work shine. She finds providing her services to organizations like IPM--whose mission is to help others or improve our world in some way--very rewarding. You can view her website here
 
It is the completely necessary support of people who simply believe in what we do and are interested to learn more--You. Your interest, your contributing thoughts, your questions, they are all welcome.
 
I have no doubt at all that much of this support is beyond our knowing
 
Thirty years ago I wrote a letter to a poet from Greece, Odysseus Elytis. Elytis won the Nobel Prize in Literature in 1979. I wrote to thank him for how much his poetry had inspired me--especially when I was training to run a marathon with a prosthetic leg.
 
I told him a little about poetry as healer. Mr. Elytis wrote (on a typewriter in those days!): "A window has been opened for you towards the world of the unknown but also true and it will help you." So true, so true.
 
If you appreciate that in this world of increasingly instant gratification and split-second attention spans, it is good to have something that takes time to tell a story--that respects your capacity for hearing that story--I hope you will consider making a donation to IPM. We are a 501c3 and your donation is tax-deductible. For more information, please see the end of the journal.
 
Looking Ahead for Expanding Awareness
 
Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)
 
Walt Whitman, from Song of Myself, 51
 
We are expanding awareness about the work of the Institute. That means we are reaching out even more to people in education, medicine, psychology, social activism, cancer support and pastoral care. That means finding ways to inspire and be useful to more individuals. That means me coming into the 21st century a little. Kicking and screaming? Contradicting myself? Yes! (Thanks, Walt!) We invite you to connect with us on Facebook and to share your poetry therapy-related happenings with our community. Please also visit our web site to learn about the work of our Poetry Partners, the Poetic Medicine Training Program and the many dimensions and resources related to this work. Please share this edition of the Journal with friends and colleagues.

As I close this letter, I offer a poem that speaks for the way someone, by 
lifting up the light of insight, presence and care, can help us make our way 
towards wholeness. You may be that person for someone, you may know someone who acts for you as a  Lantern Carrier. You'll find that poem towards the end of the Journal
  
I welcome you to contact me.
 
Sincerely Yours,

John Fox
The Institute for Poetic Medicine

 
Schedule
JOHN'S UPCOMING SCHEDULE
MAY 12, 2016
Hartford, CT

Poetic Medicine:  
The Healing Art of Poem-Making
Riverwood Poetry Series
In this talk, conversation and mini-workshop, John will present essentials about poetry-as-healer. He will fit this into the broader context of making poetry and poem-making a meaningful and fun part of our daily life--not only for when the need to write is great because of illness, loss and other travails.

Click here for more information. This is a free reading and workshop.  

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JUNE 8, 2016
San Francisco, CA
 
A Presentation of Seniors at Home
Helen Diller Family Comprehensive Cancer Center
at Jewish Family & Children's Services 
 
Let's Keep Talking About...
Love and Grief
Music and Words of Inspiration
With Anne Germanacos, Jami Siebert, and John Fox
 
6:00 - 7:00 pm Reception and Refreshments
7:00 - 8:30 pm Program
 
Seniors at Home invites you to our continuing Palliative Care Lecture series, with an outstanding evening of music and spoken words that are inspired by the realms of love and loss, while soothing aches of the heart and soul. Please join us for this unique event.

Click here  for more information and to register. 
 
We sing not for that which dies but for that which never dies.
~ Stephen Levine

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JULY 6 - 10, 2016

Bowen Island, British Columbia

Writing Our Relationship with Trees
SPONSORED BY RAY McGINNIS AND WRITE TO THE HEART
Since the autumn of 2014, John has been traveling the country offering this retreat on trees and our relationship to them. This writing retreat has proved remarkable in many ways--
  • Raising awareness that a relationship actually exists with trees and profoundly so
  • Bringing trees close at hand, making it possible to climb into them again
  • Initiating a connection that will contribute to right action when it comes to climate change and a more balanced way of walking on earth.
While it is often an uplifting current that we feel when relating to trees--life also brings us to feel the shadow side and there is much room for that in this process of writing our experience with trees.

He is looking forward to a return to Rivendell Retreat on Bowen Island.

Click here for more information and to register.

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AUGUST 12 - 13, 2016
San Jose, CA
The Center for Creative Living 
 
Seven Gifts: Poetry as a Pathway for Renewal
 
Friday, 7:00 - 9:30 pm
Saturday, 10:00 am - 5:00 pm
Fee: $110
 
In this opening Friday evening talk and all-day Saturday retreat John will lead us on a journey that names "seven gifts" of renewal given to us by poetry and poem-making.

These gifts and this renewal are accessible in the midst of living this life -- with its sorrow and joy, travail and adventure, the daily experience of being human and a deeper spiritual current that speaks to a greater mystery--poetry provides a perspective and felt-experience that can be recognized and received as gift. Spaces are limited ... a wonderful small retreat!

Click here for more information and to register.

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AUGUST 26 - 28, 2016
Cleveland, OH
 
Seven Gifts: Poetry as a Pathway for Renewal
 
Begins Friday evening and ends Sunday morning.
Fee: $130
 
In this opening Friday evening talk and all-day Saturday and Sunday morning retreat John will lead us on a journey that names "seven gifts" of renewal given to us by poetry and poem-making.

These gifts and this renewal are accessible in the midst of living this life -- with its sorrow and joy, travail and adventure, the daily experience of being human and a deeper spiritual current that speaks to a greater mystery--poetry provides a perspective and felt-experience that can be recognized and received as gift. Spaces are limited ... a wonderful small retreat!

Click here for more information and to register. 

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OCTOBER 21 - 23, 2016
San Diego, CA
 
Seven Gifts: Poetry as a Pathway for Renewal
at the home of Lynn Pollock and Ilan Auerbach
 
Friday, 7:00 - 9:30 pm
Saturday, 10:00 am - 5:00 pm
Sunday, 9:30 am - 12:30 pm
Fee: $175

In this opening Friday evening talk and all-day Saturday and Sunday morning retreat John will lead us on a journey that names "seven gifts" of renewal given to us by poetry and poem-making.

These gifts and this renewal are accessible in the midst of living this life -- with its sorrow and joy, travail and adventure, the daily experience of being human and a deeper spiritual current that speaks to a greater mystery -- poetry provides a perspective and felt-experience that can be recognized and received as gift. Spaces are limited ... a wonderful small retreat!

Click here for more information and to register.

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DECEMBER 9 - 11, 2016
Bangor, PA
Kirkridge Retreat Center 
 
Seven Gifts: Poetry as a Pathway for Renewal
 
Begins Friday evening and concludes Sunday at noon
Fee: $425 (includes all meals, lodging and teaching fees)

In this opening Friday evening talk and all-day Saturday and Sunday morning retreat John will lead us on a journey that names "seven gifts" of renewal given to us by poetry and poem-making.

These gifts and this renewal are accessible in the midst of living this life -- with its sorrow and joy, travail and adventure, the daily experience of being human and a deeper spiritual current that speaks to a greater mystery -- poetry provides a perspective and felt-experience that can be recognized and received as gift. Spaces are limited ... a wonderful small retreat!

Click here for more information and to register. 
 
Partners
POETRY PARTNER PROGRAMS

The Stories of Arrival: Refugee and Immigrant Youth Voices Poetry Project--An IPM Poetry Partner Project

by Merna Ann Hecht, Poet and Carrie Stradley,
ELL teacher, project co-directors
 
Photo: David Lynch
Carrie Stradley and Merna Ann Hecht
Once again we extend our gratitude to John Fox and the IPM for another year of project support. Our poetry project takes place at Foster High School in Tukwila, WA, one of the most language diverse schools in the U.S. The majority of participants in our project have migrated from their home countries due to the effects of war, violence, poverty and lack of education and health care that have threatened their own and their family's safety and survival. Many of these young people were born in and lived in refugee camps for their entire life before arrival to the U.S. Others have arrived here leaving their family members behind.
 
Last year we partnered with Project Feast, a Tukwila non-profit that empowers refugee women to gain their footing in the community through obtaining their food license and becoming caterers or opening small restaurants.
 
Our partnership centered on the theme of food as it speaks to family, culture, homelands and community, as well as to hunger, scarcity and migration. We welcomed several Project Feast cooks and staff members to our classroom and in turn we took a field trip to Project Feast and conducted interviews with participants, all refugees from a number of different countries.
  
Our poetry anthology resulted in a beautifully illustrated book, titled Our Table of Memories: Food & Poetry of Spirit, Homeland & Tradition with recipes, interviews and food-themed poetry. To order from independent seller, Chatwin Books, please click here. To order from Amazon, please click here.  
 
Having worked with Project Feast we see the immense value in intergenerational community partnerships built around core themes. For next year's poetry project we will focus on environmental justice and care-taking of the earth.
 
This will be in partnership with the goals and activities of the International Rescue Committee's (IRC) New Roots program. The IRC's New Roots program has a focus on youth programs that support learning about food justice and sustainability.
 
The poetry created through this project is poetry of resilience and hope that reaches the larger community through radio broadcast, publication of our poetry anthology and public events in which our participants take center stage. This past year we have become more visible in the larger community, this includes:
  • Workshop and panel presentations on how the project uses poetry as a tool for working with youth who have experienced trauma at the 2015 Rethinking Schools Annual Social Justice Conference in Seattle, WA and the 2015 annual NCTE (National Conference of Teachers of English) in Minneapolis, MN.
  • Spotlight about the project on Seattle's local NPR station KUOW and a National Spotlight on NPR's "Here and Now" out of Boston, MA on WBUR, December, 2015. To learn more, please click here and here.  
  • Articles about the Stories of Arrival Poetry Project in The Seattle Times and other print and on-line publications. Please click here for an example. 
  • Spotlight on the Academy of American Poets website and audio in honor of National Poetry Month, April, 2016. Please click here. 
  • Radio Broadcast each weekday of April in honor of National Poetry Month on KBCS 91.3 FM, live every weekday evening and archived on the website at kbcs.fm or on the Jack Straw Cultural Center website our project partner where the poets record their poetry. Please click here.
  • Requests from Global Law Associates, an Immigration law firm in Seattle, to publish six poems from last year's project on their blog.
  • Two of our project poets, Nathaly Rosas Martinez and Mahendra Biswa received the honor of reading a poem at the International Rescue Committee's (IRC) second annual GenR fundraiser event held in Seattle. Please see poems by Nathaly and Mahendra below. GenR is a group of young and influential humanitarians between the ages of 25 and 40 who have joined forces with the IRC to help people survive and rebuild their lives. It was a lively, crowded event with well over 200 people! Mahendra and Nathaly closed the program after the other speakers which included a nationally known journalist, the president of GenR Seattle, a Washington State legislator and the keynote speaker, a 23-year-old Iraqi refugee resettled by the IRC. Click here to learn more about the IRC. 
  • Our most recent anthology release celebration was enfolded into the annual Tukwila Cultural Heritage Celebration and was catered by Project Feast. We were thrilled that John Fox was in attendance for this wonderful celebration of poetry, community and culture that garnered a standing room only audience. 
At the close of each year of our project we hold an essay contest--the winners of which receive a college scholarship. This is a small way of answering to the large financial needs our students face in light of their goals for a college education. This year we were able to award a total of $1,800 to five scholarship recipients.
 
We ask scholarship applicants to talk about their educational goals and to discuss what the poetry project has meant to them. Their essays give a heartfelt and eloquent testimony to the power of poetry. Several examples of what our young poets say follow.
 
We feel it is only right to leave these final words about the project to our wonderful young poets:
  
Photo: David Lynch
Abdi Abdirahman
I was born in a refugee camp in Dadaab Kenya and lived there most of my life. Writing my poems helped me remember and appreciate what I have now and also helped non-immigrants to have a better understanding of what is it really like to be a young boy with a hopeless dream of becoming a doctor. I remember a white man who worked with  the IOM asking me what my dream was and I told him I wanted to be a doctor and I laughed at myself because I thought it was ridiculous and too big for someone like me. But here I am today working towards my dream.
 
...Poetry doesn't just show us how much we share, it helps us see the world in an entirely different way. When I heard Kang Pu's poem and how his mom died and the struggle that his family had and how the government didn't even help, I understood him better. I know that writing poetry is not easy, but  you keep taking those risks, keep having the courage to share your work, it's very very important. ...Poetry has space for English Language Learners, because poems defy rules, furthermore, poetry is universal. ELLs can learn about or read poetry in their primary language, helping them bridge their worlds.
 
      ~ Abdi Abdirahman, from Somalia

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Photo: David Lynch
Julianna Moe 
....Poems bring back our memories of our country, cultural tradition so others understand what young people who came to US as refugees go through. I'm not the only person who came to US to have a better education, thousands like me left their country because of war, not having enough food to eat. We left our own country to have a brighter future. When we write poems it brings back a thousand pieces of memories, it makes us realize how our cultural tradition is important after even when we get here in US, we keep it alive as the generations pass by.
 
Poetry connects people by sharing feelings and reading out loud in front of other people. One of the biggest things I learned was that by turning my feeling into poems, it made me feel relieved because I had been holding onto the pain inside me too long and I got to share it with the world.
 
When I looked at my classmates I realized that we are similar--how we eat limes and how our traditional foods taste the same, how we used to play games as a kids. How we used to get the water from a rivers...How we have farms far away from our house and we sleep there, and feed our animals. .....After being part of the Stories of Arrival my confidence boost up from 1% to 99%.
 
      ~ Julianna Moe, from Burma

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Photo: David Lynch 
Malaak Abdallah
 
...I can say that the Stories of Arrival gave me a power and confidence to stand in front of so many people that I don't know, and I was confident enough to tell them my story. I shared a poem that I wrote from deep in my heart. 
 
When I was recording my poem at Jack Straw I felt that I was really telling the people who don't know what it is like to be Somali. I felt that I was sending a message of peace for anyone who was hearing my voice because I wanted to let the world know that my heart is still connected with Mogadishu.
 
Poems became a key for immigrant and refugee students to stand out and get their voices to be heard by others. Also it helps connect us together because through this project we find out we are similar in many ways and that our stories look like almost the same. This project taught me that in the world that is strife-torn with war, we can change with poems because poems are not only lines, they are the way to reach all the peoples' hearts.
 
      ~ Malaak Abdallah, from Yemen and Somalia
 
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My Father's Hands
Nathaly Rosas Martinez
 
I remember my father's hands
Putting a red apple every morning
In my hands,
Wishing me a good day at school
Gently wiping the apple for me,
 
Sometimes I thought his hands had the scent
Of the perfume of my mother
She hugged me every time
Before going to work.
Sometimes my father's hands felt like the soft hands
Of my brother holding my hand
On my way home from school.
 
How many memories can save a simple apple?
Sometimes the world revolves
Around this small apple
and we don't know it.
This apple sometimes cries with me
When I remember all the things
That makes me smile
likethe tiny arms of my brother.
 
Remembering the people in my life
my father, my friends, my family
they are waiting to be alive again.
  
Photo: Annie Brule
Nathaly Rosas reading her poetry to close the IRC  
Gen R Gala. 
 
Nathaly Rosas - I wrote this poem because I believe that someone who reads it will be connected to my experience being a Mexican immigrant and to see how our family shares time together. This poem shows memories because people like me don't have their families because we are immigrants and sometimes immigrants need to leave families behind to work hard in this new country.
 
 





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Memories in a Lemon 
Mahendra Biswa
 
In Nepal there was a refugee camp
called Khudunabari with beautiful
refugee people
 
I remember me and my friends went to
a village tobring a treat of lentils
to village people
so that they would give us more lemons.
 
When I eat lemons my soul gets rest
and it brings me power over myself
but to find the lentils and trade them for lemons.
we usually steal the lentils from our home
and in the night time our parents are angry enough
to beat us, but I still want the lentils to trade
because lemons are my life and my soul.
 
To me, lemons look like beautiful sunshine
in a blue sky,
to me, lemons feel like jack fruit
growing near the sea.
 
Photo: Annie Brule
Mahendra Biswa reading his poetry to close the IRC
Gen R Gala.

 
Mahendra Biswa - The reason I wrote this poem is to remind myself that I am a true Nepali boy and son of Nepal. And to tell others that I want to go to Nepal so I can help poor people who live in a shelter, or on the roadside, or under bridges and in refugee camps. And the other reason I wrote this is to influence Nepali people who don't even miss or love Nepal.
 
 
 
 




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For the past fifteen years, Carrie Stradley, project co-director and English Language Learning (ELL) teacher, has dedicated her career to the empowerment of youth. Passionate about guiding students through the gauntlet of the English language, she aims to empower them so they may find their voice and move confidently into their chosen futures. She finds working with youth incredibly fulfilling and appreciates their unique perspective on the world.  A National Board Certified Teacher, Carrie has worked in various capacities over the years as a member of standards review committees through the Washington State Office of the Superintendent, a guest lecturer at the University of Washington, and as an advocate for the families of her students. When not devouring all things education, Carrie is often caught staring longingly at a framed map of the world in her dining room, and feels it is necessary to keep her passport up-to-date and at hand at all times.
 
Project founder and co-director, Merna Ann Hecht is a nationally known storyteller, a frequent conference presenter, and a published poet and essayist. She also teaches Creative Writing and Humanities for the University of WA, Tacoma. As a recipient of a 2008 National Storytelling Network Brimstone Award for Applied Storytelling, she worked at BRIDGES: A Center for Grieving Children in Tacoma. Based on that experience and her work with young refugees and immigrants since founding and co-directing the Stories of Arrival Poetry Project, her writing and teaching focus on the necessity of bringing creative arts to settings for young people who have experienced trauma and loss. In over thirty years of working as a teaching artist Merna continues to feel nourished by the complex beauty and vulnerability that come forth when people are given the space for telling their stories. In times of deep concern about human rights and basic human needs lacking for many worldwide, The Stories of Arrival poets inspire her with their spirit of hope and their will and actions toward peacemaking.
Furious Grace
by Wayne Gilbert
  
Poetic Medicine Poetry Partner, Unlocked Poetry
at Sterling Correctional Facility, Sterling, Colorado
 
 
The poem below by Mr. Brett Phillips is extraordinary in so many ways and for so many reasons. I do not want to talk about its formal qualities, the poetic techniques, the diction and vocabulary, or the imagery, all of which are astonishing. Neither do I want to analyze or interpret this poem, at least not in the usual literary sense. Mostly I want to provide a little context, and celebrate his exemplary accomplishments both in the poem and in his life.
 
Wayne Gilbert 
Furthermore, I want to indicate that, while this poem is indeed exceptional, it is also typical of the poems I've seen from poet-offenders over the past year during my monthly "Unlocked Poetry" sessions at the Sterling Correctional Facility. Mr. Phillips' technical skills may be superior to many or most, but the discovery and creation of transformative meaning is not unusual at all.
 
Mr. Phillips is a big, strong man, though not oversized, with a long goatee. He is fierce about practicing and expressing his own voice and forms. He's not new to writing, but he hasn't shared his work much outside a small group of poet-offenders who swap and comment on each other's poems. This prison literary group discusses poetic theory, which arises from their own creative and poetic purposes and needs, their own aspirations and inspirations. They do not "study" like academics; they struggle and learn as actual, real-life practicing poets. Of course, they discuss poets they've read in books found in the library or those that friends have sent to them. They are a tight and supportive group, but not closed. They make me think of the Bloomsbury Group, or the ex-pats at Shakespeare and Company in Paris, or the beats in New York City-with a twist, of course-they're in a Level-5 prison.
 
Inside Sterling Correctional Facility 
Mr. Phillips first read aloud from his work in an "Unlocked Poetry" session, and later, although nervous or shy or just reticent for his own reasons, gave an amazing performance of his work at our January Poetry Reading in the prison library (attended by 33 offenders and 7 prison staff).
 
I cannot explain the sources of this poem. I've taught writing for 36 years, and have rarely seen such a complex, moving, brilliant and beautiful piece. Mr. Phillips has talent, no doubt. And he works hard at his art and his craft. Still, I've seen plenty of talented people who work hard, and do not produce such incredible work. For explanation, I simply must resort to proclaiming and celebrating the magical, mysterious, medicinal powers of creativity, especially of making poems. And the openness of the heart that makes them!
 
"A Stranger" is a story of an inward redemptive heroic journey. Most of the poet-offenders I've met have chosen to take responsibility for their pasts, but refuse to be defined by them. They are ferociously determined to make better human beings of themselves. Each has experienced a self-induced, self-inflicted, even self-willed trial by the fire of their offenses. Now they are using the power of that same fire as fuel for transformation. The fire burns away the noise of bitterness and regret, so each can finally hear that "still, small voice" within-then freely weep-and finally hope! Traditionally, this is the sacred spiritual path to enlightenment of the monk or holy man.
 
When people hear about the "Unlocked Poetry" project, they often comment on my generosity and compassion taking on such work. I don't see it that way at all. I gain far more than I give. These poet-offenders are among the most resilient and irrepressible men I have ever met. As a man dealing with my own issues related to Parkinson's Disease and aging, I am filled with respect for them. I am challenged to take my own life struggles to new depths of transformation, and inspired to hear the voice of my own heart's deepest affections. Their furious grace accompanies me on my own journey now, and, for that, I am most grateful!
 
Here's the poem:
 
A Stranger
By Brett Phillips
(used by permission of the poet)
 
I have lived in this place for so long,
  and I face its truth every day.
No, not the concrete panoply
  of naked oppression and aggression.
No, I speak of the citadel
  that is my heart,
This place of crumbling wall,
  of broken crenellation,
of softly covered earth,
  heather cracking its rich flesh,
the place I was once held safe
  in rocky bosom,
where no hand could touch,
  no weakness to breach,
where no man could trace
  my withdrawal,
where no child has ever
  been more alone.
 
Sunsets, orange and salmon
  echoed against the leaden ash,
smashing again and again
  into impassive ramparts
and I sat,
  ruling from hollow throne,
   from hollow soul.
Iron hands choked
grace, freely giv'n,
brutally taken
  in misplaced vengeance
   in misguided anger.
 
The world was not enough,
  and I, in berserker blood-frenzy
turned my eye inward,
  pulling down my own defense,
disconnecting even my own rage,
  my campaign waged,
   my destruction complete.
 
Then, sitting in smoky ruin,
  body cleaved,
mind racked in
  excruciating thought,
a bud, a calyx
  rose from scorched flesh
and a still, small voice
  swelled around me,
and for the first time,
I cried


Wayne A. Gilbert started teaching in 1979. He taught creative writing, literature
and composition for 26 years at the Community College of Aurora. Wayne was also
a university graduate adjunct instructor in educational psychology. He is now fully retired from teaching. Wayne has published two books of poems, magmamystic and
From the Ashes. He is well-known in the Denver area for dynamic performances of his poems. In 2005, Wayne was diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease, and is looking for a publisher for his P.D. poems titled, Rants, Chants and the Parkie Dance, from which he will be reading at the International Parkinson's Congress in Portland in September. He is also a dancer and co-founder of "Re-Connect with Your Body," a Dance for PD affiliate class sponsored by Art as Action, and an actor and co-founder of
Us-In-A-Box Theatre Workshop, a group of actors who write and stage original performance pieces. In April 2015, after receiving a grant from The Institute for Poetic Medicine, Wayne started monthly poetry sessions of Unlocked Poetry for poet-offenders at Sterling Correctional Facility, Sterling, CO.
 
NewsNEWS OF IPM
Academy of American Poets Spotlights
"Stories of Arrival: Refugee and Immigrant
Youth Voices",
Celebrates National Poetry Month

Photo: Sara Niegowski
Carrie Stradley
In celebration of National Poetry Month,
The Academy of American Poets spotlights Stories of Arrival: Refugee and Immigrant Youth Voices, a poetry project funded by The Institute for Poetic Medicine. The project helps refugee and immigrant teens find their voices and tell their stories of trauma, resilience, displacement, and loss through the process of poem-making. For the past seven years, project co-directors, ESL teacher Carrie Stradley, and project founder, poet Merna Ann Hecht dedicated themselves to lifting up the voices of these refugee and immigrant teens from as many as 17 countries, together in a single classroom at Foster High School in Tukwila, WA, one of the most language diverse high schools in the U.S.
 
Merna Ann Hecht
This year the project produced,
Our Table of Memories: Food & Poetry of Spirit, Homeland & Traditionpublished by Chatwin Books, that pairs poems about the food of their home countries with the actual recipes. The youth wrote these stories and worked with the women involved in Project Feast to gather the recipes. These poems are personal and they are political, they savor home culture and cuisine. This book serves to help refugees and immigrants share their strengths and experiences, and by doing so, literally and metaphorically nourish the larger community. We invite you to our table!

Merna Ann Hecht writes in the book's introduction, "Every young person in this project and each woman we have met through Project Feast is an ambassador for teaching us about the courage required to endure the ache of leaving a homeland. They inspire us as they find their way, using a new language and adjusting to this vastly different country. Even so, the Project Feast cooks and our young poets tell us they will always miss the taste of home."

"What has brought you, the reader here to share in the experiences of immigrant and refugee youth today is undoubtedly a deep desire to understand others who are frequently misrepresented or misunderstood," writes Carrie Stradley.

"The Institute for Poetic Medicine is proud to support "Stories of Arrival: Immigrant Youth Voices." This work-of-the-heart establishes understanding, connection and community," said John Fox, executive director of The Institute for Poetic Medicine.

The Heartbeat of Hope
at Eremos in Austin Texas

"Magical combination of diverse yet kindred speakers."
 
~ Heartbeat of Hope participant

One recent event I want to highlight is a day-long retreat focused on deepening contemplative life. Sponsored by Eremos*, a center of contemplative life, The Heartbeat of Hope was held on Saturday April 9 in Austin, Texas.
 
John Fox and Mirabai Starr 
I joined with Mirabai Starr to explore with those gathered the experience of hope--what is hope really? How does a person, perhaps, misunderstand hope? In the midst of the travails and vicissitudes of life, do we always recognize hope? That is, if hope has a different face than the one we might expect, do we miss out on what (or who?) hope could be?
 
It was such a delight to share this day with Mirabai. She is an exquisite writer and translator of mystics--St. Theresa of Avila, St. John of the Cross, Saint Francis, Julian of Norwich. Her particularly beautiful interspiritual work reveals common ground (and connected hearts!) found in various faith traditions.
 
Lynn Ahrens, Cathey Capers and John Fox
While contemplation and spiritual practice has not been my primary focus in the work of poetry as an expressive and healing art, I am so deeply rooted in this myself--a spirit of contemplation. To have a whole day where the focus was on contemplative practice--this appealed to me greatly.
 
Dianna Amorde, Executive Director of Eremos, lights a candle for our day. 
I met Mirabai through the invitation by Eremos. We discovered, besides both being poets, we shared treasured relationships over many years with the same dear people--she being close to Ram Dass and to Stephen and Ondrea Levine. Perhaps this sense of lineage is a contributing "reason" why our day flowed seamlessly.
 
Photo: Paul Tesluk
John and Mirabai 
 
 
Yet I believe a commitment to our own spiritual practice surely matters even more. We both seek to be instruments of something much more than ourselves. These things, and the sheer fact that both she and I are burnished in the burning pyre of loss--and have come through such purifying flame with a willingness to serve.
  
Mirabai guided beautiful meditations. I led a few writing practices. She gave a presentation called Love Language. My talk was titled A Single Line Opens the Way. People shared their writing, their poems, during which time Mirabai and I drew ourselves close to the people present. Together we felt sacred community. We had great fun, too! 
 
"Heartfelt process which is the essence of Eremos was evident  
in this program."
 
~ Heartbeat of Hope participant
 
My thanks to Dianna Amorde and Jean Springer of Eremos--what a beautiful work they care for and nourish.

*
eremos (eh-ray-mos)
Greek word meaning solitary place, quiet place, desert place
 
"We seek to provide opportunities for people of all faith traditions
and all walks of life to step back from the hectic pace of life and
reconnect to their Source."  

~ from the Eremos web site

Learn more about Eremos here
 
To find out more about Mirabai Starr, please click here. 
 
You might enjoy the slide show that was created to go with my talk, A Single Line Opens the Way. Thanks to Valerie Knight for her superb work. Click here to view.
A COMMUNITY OF POETS
Stories and Poems that Lift Up the
Healing Power of Poetry
 
~ Lisa Bertsch ~


Writing about my experiences...
gave me new perspectives and subsequently skills that allowed me to approach my life in more conscious, effective ways.
 




The Calling
The light shines
Hot and mean on my skin.
 
My eyes dart
Seeking cover-
A comfortable hole
To slink back into
 
A crevice
To neatly wedge myself within
Where I can become as cool and calcified as inert stone.
 
Finding no refuge
From this grace
This glory
I quake in the beating light
 
Then
In its permeating presence
I grow still
Allowing the light to flood my being.


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My life as a poet began at the age of twenty-four when I fell fifteen feet through a warehouse floor, sustaining a spinal burst fracture which impinged upon 60% of my spinal cord. Although I required major surgery to stabilize and protect my spinal cord, I was surprisingly lucky. Relatively quickly I would sit up, walk, get back to yoga and over time pick up the pieces of my life and get back to my values, plans, hopes and dreams.
 
Lost Dreams
 
Lost dreams
Visions
And once-treasured things
Lie rusting in the swamp.
 
Acres of lowlands
Scattered with desires
Forgotten
Neglected
Abandoned.
 
Deep scent of decay floats on the lazy breeze.
 
No life left here-- 
 
Only shells and skeletons
Empty
Slithering with snakes.
 
Thick slime concealing
The lustrous finish of belongings once residing in the heart
 
Now banished in anger
Tossed in with the dented and dinged
Stoves
And old car parts.
 
A halfhearted drizzle turns to rhythmic sheets of rain
Filling the broken porcelain claw-foot tub perched on the hilltop
Bathed in a solitary beam of light.
 
Water washing
Cleansing
The enamel returns,
Polished by remembrances of these once-treasured things.
 
Scavenge and hunt
Dust off your lost dreams.
 
Allow them to rise
From the heaps
And reside in the heart yet again.
 
 
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Yoga led my recovery as I worked to re-embody not only my physical self, but also every aspect of myself. In this process I began to see that despite my lucky break, ceaseless effort, and tremendous progress the injury would forever affect my daily life. I would continually work to balance energy, health, work, socialization, relationships, and not to mention my internal experience. I struggled more than I anticipated in my youthful optimism.
 
Mountain Prayer

O mountain, what am I to do?
Why do you just stand there while my heart breaks?
Don't you feel the tremors as I do?
Is there no sympathy within you for my human frailty?
 
In your presence I feel translucent.
I've come to you for solace
But you don't see me here, kneeling in my smallness.
 
The sunlight washes me away.

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Over time I worked to digest this reality, figure out how to work with it as productively as possible and manage the cacophony of thoughts, emotions, sensations, and unknowns I faced. My reality had been turned upside down. I was uprooted. It was completely devastating and unexpectedly freeing. In the face of this hardship came immeasurable joys and poetry rose within me.
 
The Crack in Reality

So sure of what is real--
Blue is blue
And land is firm--
 
We build walls
With definitions and names
Obscuring the horizon
The fertile beyond
The place of our inception and destiny.
 
Find the crack in reality
The exception
The definition that defies known laws
 
Where yellow is blue
And land is light as air.

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I began to collect words and phrases that came to me.  When they emerged they felt powerful and effortless, eventually becoming poems. Writing about my experiences gave me new perspectives and subsequently skills that allowed me to approach my life in more conscious, effective ways. In putting experiences that I thought were very specific to me into words, I saw that they were universal experiences that knit me tightly in humanity's story at a time when I felt very separated.

Additionally, I began to notice that when I converted strictly physical sensations into words they by nature became metaphorical. During my morning yoga practice images and poems often bubbled up as felt sensations. I became less frustrated and ruled by difficult experiences if I were able to transform it into something tangible. Over time I saw patterns and links between poetry and my embodied experience and learned that they were part if an indivisible whole.

Although the arts were always a major part of my life, at this time they seemed to emerge rather instinctually, in a way that felt very related to wellbeing and even survival. They seemed to become a necessity.  My exploration in using poetry and embodiment as a means for healing in my life and in the lives of others began to take form.
 
Grace Appears
Where there was only clouded vision
Which grew to timid steps,
Grace appears
 
Lighting the path upward-
Nudging
Coaxing
Inspiring.
 
Now dancing the dance 
Grace leads, I follow.
 
With her hand
I attempt a dance
More splendid
More beautiful
Than I imagined possible
In my mere humanness.

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I am now author of Grace Leads, I Follow; Poems of Trauma and Transformation, which houses the collection of the poems above. As much as possible, I support individuals and groups facing major life challenges through adaptive yoga,
mindfulness, movement, creativity, poetry, play. Visit www.lisaannmoore.com for more about me. I can be reached by email at bertschlisa@gmail.com.


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Poet Lisa A. Bertsch regards creative expression as a devotional activity. She sings in The Schola Cantorum of Santa Fe, which specializes in sacred a cappella music and is a certified yoga teacher with training in adaptive and trauma-sensitive yoga. Lisa resides in Santa Fe, New Mexico.
~ Joe Milosch ~ 

The effect of writing this poem...
was not a complete resolution of my anxiety, but its effect on me was another stepping stone towards dealing with my grief.
~
Before I retired, I worked for the last 40 years as a trail locator for the Cleveland National Forest and as a heavy equipment foreman in the private sector. My poetry draws on those experiences; as well, as growing up in the farmland, north of Detroit, Michigan and my army experiences during the Vietnam War.
 
Patsy and Joe Milosch
I was married for 33 years, and for 25 of those years, I was the primary health supporter for my wife. Patsy lost her fight against cancer in July of 2015. During the last three years of her life, I was the primary health care provider. 
During those years, I wrote love poems to wife, which documented our experience with cancer. The first poem I wrote of this nature was published by John Fox in his book, Poetic Medicine.
 
Why is a scar on a man a mark of distinction,
on a woman a mark of disfigurement?
 
I don't know.
 
Why is it funny when a man loses his hair,
and tragic when a woman loses hers?
 
I don't know.
 
What will you tell her
when the X-Rays turn the scar
on her breast raw hamburger red? 
 
I don't know.
 
When she's bald, lost the hair
from her eyebrows,
and lies with closed eyes,
with a skeletal look,
will you kiss her
and tell her
she's beautiful?
 
I don't know.
 
What do you do
in the bedroom,
when she is thinking
of death,
and she cries?
 
I hold her hand, and I breathe.
 
In what seemed to me as strange occurrence, dealing with my wife's illness released memories of my military experience during the Vietnam War. In the Army, my MOS (Military Occupational Specialty Code) was a 17L20, which is an aerial photographer. Memories triggered by her illness caused an intense series anxiety attacks.
 
In 1970, I was at the overseas station in Fort Lewis Washington. While I was waiting to be shipped to Nam, a friend from my former company, the 152nd, appeared one morning at the overseas station. He joined me in formation. He was part Native American and part European. During that formation, he received orders for Viet Nam, and I received orders returning me to our company in Fort Lewis, Washington.
 
It was a week later that I was informed that his plane exploded in Nam. In the mid-nineties, these memories prevented me from sleeping. One night I composed this poem.  
 
A Brief History
We weren't childhood buddies with a history of playing Buffalo Bill and Sitting Bull. We were two strangers pulling guard duty on Skunk Hill.
 
Under a Y-cloud shadow,
slivers of water stream
down blades of grass.
They drop on dirt mounds,
footprints, and a gray stone
soon the season will change.
 
What if you hadn't enlisted in the Army in '71? What if you hadn't volunteered for Nam? What if you hadn't hoped a bronze star would transform you into a 100%?
 
A gopher's head in the den's door,
he is surrounded by five beige birds.
He barks at their shadows, which form
a ring in the sunlight.
 
And we hadn't said you were a Cherokee, even though you corrected us, 'Oglala'. And, if a sergeant from Seattle hadn't disliked you because you were, quote, "Indian?"
 
Dropped in the fall, a broad-leaf tree dries.
Neither its bark nor its leaves can save it.
How much wood keeps a man warm?
 
Would it have ever been a practical joke? If you hadn't died or if you'd returned from Nam without a scratch?
 
I dream of a scarecrow in a corn field.
It's dressed in khaki shirt, army pants.
I see two warriors waving, hear a threadbare hero.
 
What if you hadn't replaced me at the over-seas station?* Would it still have taken me 25 years to admit I'm a beneficiary of prejudice?
 
In a season of early scents,
orange and grapefruit tree are blossoming.
I roll over, hold my wife, and
count the ohs and ahs of my heart.
Happy to be alive, I feel full
with the urge to cry.
 
The effect of writing this poem was not a complete resolution of my anxiety, but its effect on me was another stepping stone towards dealing with my grief. By examining the conflict within me, I was able to release some of the tensions of the event that caused my insomnia. This resulted in making me less defensive about my condition and allowed me to enter into a dialogue with my wife by enabling me to accept the compassion my wife offered me as well as respond with sensitivity to my wife's anxieties
 
Because, as it turned out, we suffered from similar anxieties. Patsy wondered why she survived, while other cancer patients, who tried as hard as she did, died after a couple of years. I wondered why I was not sent to Nam, which enabled me to survive the war.
 
Both of us were survivors but there was something more.
 
I was no better than my friend, Smitty. The only difference was that I was of Irish-Polish decent. I remembered how some of the Sergeants made fun of his heritage when we were stationed at Fort Lewis.
 
Despite her illness, my wife organized a trip to the Vietnam Memorial in Washington DC. She felt that it would help me deal with Smitty's death. As I was reading the names of the dead, this poem came to me.
 
How Can I Find You,
Who Gave to Me the Gift of My Life
 
Everywhere the day has turned
into the color, existing between
red and violet. At the wall
my heart refuses to embrace the black
marble or the reflections of clothes the
color of deep red and purple. I ask
my reflection, "Do I dare
bring inside me the colors
of white or green?" I tell myself
I know everything is foolish,
especially my wish
that you have the ability or the desire to find me.
 
How could I expect you to meet me without bitterness or malice?
 
The experience at the Viet Nam Memorial helped me deal with my experience as well as my wife's illness. It was during the last five years of my wife's illness that I became aware that she was dying. I remember the day I realized I was losing her. We were in the hospital so she could receive her MRI exam. When I saw her coming out of the examination room, a poem came to me.
 
That night I worked on the poem. It was during the composition that I realized my anxiety over the death of my comrade was linked to my inability to speak to him and listen to him. I decided that I needed to communicate with my wife in a special way. I had to be present with her in the moment.
 
Of course that is easy to say, but impossible to do. Still, it did contribute to a better relationship with her, and along with that poem, Why Is a Scar on a Man... my new poem became a favorite of hers.
       
Advice to the Lovelorn
 
Waiting for my wife to complete her MRI, I have no
patience with the book, which I brought to pass the
time. Occasionally, I open it and remove my wife's
picture that I use as a bookmark. Then, replacing it,
I close the book and look at the receptionist,
who is talking to her sister about her recent breakup.
Hanging up her smart phone, she turns on the TV
and watches her favorite show, Advice to the Lovelorn,
which starts with the host telling us that you should go
to the ocean every chance you get. You should sit
on the sea wall until the sound of the waves,
sliding away from the shore becomes silent,
and your mind becomes as opaque as the sky.
He says that when you can recreate this very
same tranquility in an airport or Laundromat
that you should go to the home of your lover and sit
in front of the fireplace with or without a fire.
Sip a drink so simple you forget you are
drinking it. Sit so close to your lover that your
shoulders touch. But don't speak. Instead, conjure
the silence of the waves and the opaqueness of the sky,
and breathe steadily until you unearth the realm of the
horizon, the space to begin. Of course, this is the way
we want our life and our love to continue.
I think about 30 years of marriage, its beginnings
and then I think about our Colorado, river rafting trip,
and how we slept on the beaches.
I remember that one morning the river sparkled
as she swam, just before we broke camp.
As she walks out of that examining room with its
sterilized table, she rests on her cane, and looking at me,
she smiles. I stand, thinking this is what I want
even more than the health of our youth, and that ride
through the rapids, it's this--this delight in her infinite eyes.

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As I worked on the above poem, I thought about Smitty's death. I knew I could never find his mother, but I wrote her, and the poem, Somewhere Between the Beginning and the Present, which was the first time I could express the emotional crisis caused by becoming a survivor as a result of prejudice.
 
Somewhere Between the Beginning
and the Present
                            
A letter to Smitty's Mother
 
Lydia,
 
As I closed the blinds because sunlight hurts my eyes, I saw the world map hanging on the wall by the window. It reminded me again of Smitty and of you. I suppose my problem with sunlight began in October or November of '71. Rain dripped off my plastic poncho as I stood in a formation with those being shipped to Nam. I was thinking of maps when Smitty took the space beside me. Because Smitty was supposed to remain stateside, his appearance startled me, and we were both shocked the next morning when we discovered that both our orders were changed. I was to remain here in the states while they were shipping Smitty to Nam. Why they had done it no one ever explained; though, rumor had it someone switched
those orders because he was a half-breed Sioux or because he wore love beads. For me this switch was not a joke. As a result, I can work only in dark rooms.
 
All I know is his plane exploded overseas. On the day of the ceremony celebrating his death, it stopped raining. Then, you stepped onto the stage in sunlight, Lydia, and the rays reflecting off your sequin purse changed forever the way I reacted to light. As I stood at attention beside his casket, one sergeant stood directly behind me. He mumbled, "A good Indian is ...." Later, he offered you condolences. In the sunlight, the dog tags they presented to you gleamed inside the glass cover. I pulled my cap's brim over my shades. Still the light coming off the case hurt my eyes.
 
Lydia, I didn't dare tell you that it wasn't Smitty in the bag and that it was a common trick they pulled by placing his name tag on another soldier's bag. They knew you would never find out it wasn't your son under the red carnations you placed on the body bag. That we came out of that war changed and incomplete, didn't give me the right to make your pain even worse, so I kept my mouth shut and let it ride. Thinking of him brings this image of you. Dressed in a black coat, you stand in the winged shadow of a recon plane.
 
I wondered what you thought as you touched what you thought was his body, and drops of mist slid off your sleeve onto the plastic bag. The army taught me the trick of reading a map by finding parts of an idealized woman among its contour lines, but I find it hard to idealize anything. Maybe I just don't want to see anything too clearly. And maybe that has something to do with the fact that in daylight I feel lost, and wear cheap sunglasses, and will not enter a room until the blinds are closed. Often I sit in shadows. I close my eyes and enter a place where memories
run like rain off hanger roofs and recon planes.
 
Joe Milosch 2013
 
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Although the writing about experiences didn't relieve my anxiety a 100%, it has enabled me to live with a modicum of emotional distress. After my wife passed, my poems about her and Smitty connect me not only with them but with all the ones I loved, who have died.
 
I realize that the characters in most of my poems live among my memories of the dead. It is as if they fly overhead, and every once in a while, their shadows fall upon my vision. Thus, my writings bring to me a touch of peace as well as a touch of sadness, which I suppose is the way I grieve for those whom I've loved.
 
Sharing our experiences about cancer and war enabled my wife and me to cope with her terminal illness. Being her confidant was like writing in a community. I believe this small community is like any community that honestly engages in the life of its members, and this community enabled me to braid my experience with hers into a long and continuous tale of love.

Below are two poems. The first poem is about my wife's and my experience of the death of cancer patients we came to know in the Chemo center where she received treatments.
 
The second poem was written almost simultaneously with the first poem. It is the first time I was able to write about how Smitty died. I think it is important to note that it took me over 40 years to write this poem.
 
After a Dark Day in the Chemo Center
 
Between two empty chairs is a window.
Outside the shadows of leaves wave
on the sidewalk. In the ward, silence
is cushioned by the squeak of plastic
wheels on linoleum. While the pump
machines hum, the nurses avoid
the two chairs as they walk and talk
like people who are calm about it all.
After I return home, the image of two
empty chairs arrives and tells a story
about mourning. I listen to an Irish
guitarist and feel the dampness in
the tin sounding notes. The music
quiets me like a walk through sea fog.
Thinking that I'm a sentimentalist
to reflect on the two chairs that
followed me home like ghosts, I sit
in my Lazy Boy. I consider the calming
effect of the ocean's fog and the restful
sound of the guitar, whose music
travels like grief through my heart.
 
      
The Way It Was
          Vietnam 1970
 
It began in the morning.
One went to the washroom
and saw his comrade. They
exchanged flight duty so that
his friend could attend the
Bob Hope show.
One returned to his hutch,
drank a beer, and went to
the mission review. Afterwards,
he drank another beer, and when
the bus left, he waved to his bud.
Next one installed camera equipment
in the plane's bay. Later, he lunched,
napped, ate dinner, and drank more beer.
He walked to the hanger. With the pilot,
he climbed into the cockpit and waited
on the runway for clearance.
Then, the plane exploded,
and by the time one's
friend returned on the bus,
all the scraps had been removed
from the runway.
 
In conclusion, my wife lived with courage, and this gave me the realization--in a humble way--that I was fortunate to be drafted and work with brave men, and I was equally fortunate to be married to such a courageous woman.
  
 
Citations
Why Is a Scar on a Man...
Published in Poetic Medicine: The Healing Art of Poem-Making, Jeremy P. Tarcher Inc., 1997
 
A Brief History.
Published in Getting Something Read 2009
 
Somewhere Between the Beginning and the Present.
Winner of the Hackney Award 2014 & published in The Birmingham Arts Journal.
 
After a Dark Day in the Chemo Center.
Published in Lumox 2015
 
The Way It Was.
Nominated for the Pushcart Prize 2015. Published in The San Diego Poetry Annual 2015.
 
(*The overseas station is a location, usually at a fort, where troops are gathered in order that they may be deployed to an out of country destination. Fort Lewis was one of two army locations. At the overseas station the soldiers were given jungle fatigues and boots as well as the basic combat gear. Then they performed mundane work while the waited for their official orders, which documented that they were sent out of the USA. Then they loaded onto air planes and were transported to their destination.) 

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Joe Milosch's poetry has appeared in various magazines, including the California Quarterly. He has multiple nominations for the Pushcart and received the Hackney Award for Literature. His books are The Lost Pilgrimage Poems and Landscape of a Woman and a Hummingbird.


To purchase these books, click here and here.




 
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I graduated from San Diego State University. As I was nearing the end of my tenure in graduate school, I began working with the Carlsbad Library in Carlsbad, CA. I worked with the poet James Allen to bring in poets to read and to lead poetry workshops. After James Allen's death, I took over the program and ran Magee Perk Poets readings and workshops from 1995 to 2013.
 
Through my involvement with the poets leading the workshops, I became involved with CPITS, California Poets in the Schools. As a CPITS poet, I worked in grades 1-12, bring poetry to the students. Eventually, I became an area coordinator for San Diego County.
 
Perhaps my most exciting years in poetry were those years leading workshops for elementary and secondary students. Their poetry seemed to flow effortlessly from the past to the present to the future, and during our class read-around, their poetry seemed to connect us to a community larger than ourselves.
 
As a teacher, my second most exciting time was teaching composition and literature in the Vincennes outreach program on the Navy base, located on Coronado Island, CA. As it turned out, my most dedicated students were the enlisted personnel.
 
My teaching career was sandwiched between working as a trail locator for the Cleveland National Forest and as a construction inspector in the private sector. After 40 years in construction, I retired. My poetry draws on those experiences; as well, as growing up in the farmland, north of Detroit, Michigan and my army experience during the Vietnam War.
Click here for more stories on the Community of Poets pages
on the IPM web site.
ReflectionsREFLECTIONS
Saying Farewell, Feeling Gratitude
Reflections on the Lives of Three People I Cherish & Who
Made an Immense Difference in My Life
 
Home is where one starts from. As we grow older
the world becomes stranger, the pattern more complicated
Of dead and living. Not the intense moment
Isolated, with no before and after,
But a lifetime burning in every moment
And not the lifetime of one man only
But of old stones that cannot be deciphered.
 
T. S. Eliot, from The Four Quartets, East Coker
 
I'd like to share with you my appreciation for three men who made a profound impact on my life and my work in the field of poetry therapy. Since mid-September 2015, all three have died.
 
Each, in very particular ways, provided me essential mentorship.
 
Our friendship transcends the benefit and blessing of what they gave to me.
 
For each one, I feel deep and lasting appreciation and gratitude.
 
Jeremy Tarcher, Stephen Levine and Jim Olson are all woven into a large and whole tapestry. Any good that has come through me, I can refer you back to their faith, their support, their example.
 
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Stephen Levine
 
Stephen Levine 
 
I knew of Stephen Levine because of his close connection to the spiritual teacher Ram Dass and Elisabeth Kubler-Ross.
 
When I was 16, in 1971, a junior at Shaker Heights High School, Ram Dass and his book Be Here Now made an immense impact on me; it influenced the direction and focus of my whole life.
 
His influence became personal when, a few years later, between 1973 - 75, as I faced and went through with the amputation of my right leg (below the knee), Ram Dass was witness to and guide for my journey through this shattering experience.
 
When I was 20 and a student at Bard College in 1976, I had the good fortune to meet Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. Elisabeth was sitting on the grass with a small circle of students in front of Kline Commons. I joined them and we instantly connected--especially when I mentioned knowing Ram Dass--her eyes flashed sharply! Later that year, at a retreat in Halifax, Nova Scotia, EKR fiercely opened my experience of life. The miracle? I began to see myself and others in all our humanness--from rage to ecstasy, grief to belonging. 
 
Stephen studied closely with and assisted Elisabeth at this time. He wrote (with Ram Dass) Grist for the Mill in that same year of 1976 and then, his exquisite A Gradual Awakening came along in 1979. Stephen spoke to my heart.
 
John with Ondrea and Stephen Levine, circa 1982
I am holding a photo of the saint from India, Ananada Moyi Ma, a gift of Stephen and Ondrea.
 
In the late fall of 1981, Stephen and his wife Ondrea visited Nevada City, CA, I wanted to be with them. The weekend retreat was called Conscious Living, Conscious Dying. That retreat began a healing and mentoring connection that has informed my life for decades. Shortly after that first meeting, Stephen wrote in a regular-sized postcard:
 
"John hello, a birth defect you say?! and your genes aren't sanfordized!! Well, here we all are, all of us still complaining about too much homework--but my heart suggests it is a blessing not a curse, that only the mind holds hell. To an executioner sympathy is a defect, to the gardener the hole in his bucket is a defect - but to the man about to be executed that sympathy is a grace, as the water to the plants along the garden path--"defect" says Maharaji, "God knows no such thing." I love you. Let it shine, Stephen & Ondrea
 
That was one packed postcard. Stephen's love and humor, his faith in my wholeness and in indivisible truth, he shook me up and moved me much closer to the courage I needed to live more consciously. 
 
That Stephen identified as a poet certainly strengthened the fabric of our friendship. He had published Synapse: Sutras, Myths & Visions of the Retinal Circus and lovebeast & other incarnations in 1965 and 1968.
 
Eventually, God knows why, Stephen invited me to manage a few of the longer retreats that he and Ondrea were offering. That means I was in charge of registration, the money etc. Sometimes he asked me to sit up front and ring the bell for the morning meditation.
 
My return for such an opportunity?
 
I watched how Stephen listened and responded to people showing up in all manner of travail. He could be light-hearted and focused like a laser beam. He and Ondrea met parents living with the death of their precious child to violence and cancer, sit with people in the early 80s and onward dying during the wild-fire rush of the AIDS crises, lean close to such beautiful varied people looking to mend holes in worn and threadbare hearts. Both S & O, by their presence, wafted the holy scent of mercy through those holes.
 
At some point, at one of the longer retreats, Stephen invited me to read my poems. I talked about those poems and why they made a healing difference. There was an orthopedic surgeon at one of those retreats, Ken Zubrick, who came up to me and said something to the effect, "There is a woman at the hospital where I work who talks about poetry & healing like you do." Actually I had never quite put it all together like that--but in a strong instance of poetic justice, this orthopedic surgeon (I had grown up as a child and teen with orthopedic surgeons!) rung a bell of truth.
 
And so, in a life-changing moment, I was made aware of the poetry therapy pioneer, Joy Shieman. Joy had worked at El Camino Hospital since 1962 doing this extraordinary thing with poetry and creativity. It was about a year and a half later in late 1984 that at her invitation, I began as Joy's intern and started to work towards my certification.
 
Stephen not only had shown me what it meant to serve people from a heart-centered place but he created an opportunity for me to discover a life-time of service.
 
Our friendship sustained itself in all the years since. Stephen gladly wrote testimonials for my books. When I founded The Institute for Poetic Medicine, he and Ondrea were so encouraging. Every four or five months Stephen would check in, would send me a new poem based on his work with Chinese painting and characters. In July of 2009 he sent me a poem called Painting 2. Here are some stanzas:
 
The sharp brush
holds us to the path.
The fat dragon brush
Raises mountains through the mist-
"somewhere between being
and non-being" Wang Wei tells us-
temples float over the ridge
in a great gray ocean resembling compassion.
We cross a bridge over a cataract,
calligraphy tumbling through the spectral rocks.
 
Something is written there
only the old trickster can read
who sings it like no other.
 
Leaning against an ancient mulberry tree
we are praying to each other
for perfection.
[to which so much suffering clings]
 
In the brush-marked mountains
by the javelina-run raven
unseen in the silver mist
an idyll hermit in his thatched hut
prepares his ink for the magic
of the turning word, the hidden
word, the true word
deathless and impermanent.
 
In 2013 I got to return a favor by writing a testimonial for Stephen's last book, Becoming Kwan Yin: The Evolution of Compassion:
 
"I don't consider this wise
and loving book as so much
written by Stephen Levine as I do
a clear message from Kwan Yin herself."
 
John Fox
The Institute for Poetic Medicine
 
Not many weeks before he died, Stephen wrote me one sentence by e-mail, saying he was sending love. Love is what he had sent all along. He and Ondrea. Throughout writing this deep appreciation of Stephen, I've remembered Ondrea and her great love for him, for all those people they served together. Stephen died on January 17, 2016 after a long illness that included degenerative spinal disease.
 
What did I give to this wise teacher and friend who had told me about a most difficult thing imaginable, that I needn't be concerned that "your (my) genes aren't sanforized"?! What a holy joker!
 
San·for·ized
ˈsanfəˌrīzd/
adjective NORTH AMERICAN trademark
(of cotton or other fabrics) preshrunk by a controlled compressive process; meeting certain standards of washing shrinkage.
 
He signed my copy of A Gradual Awakening this way, "Your poetry opens my heart. Thanks. Stephen"

Please click here for tribute to Stephen Levine.

If you would like to help support, Ondrea, wife and teaching partner of Stephen Levine, there is an exquisite and moving recollection with Ondrea. Please click here and here. 
 
*  *  *  *  *
Jeremy Tarcher
 
I was standing with Jim Fadiman on the apron of his driveway in Menlo Park. It was autumn in 1992. I'd come over to show Jim a copy of the Course Reader I had put together for the poetry therapy course I had been hired to teach the following Spring at John F. Kennedy University in the Graduate School of Professional Psychology. I knew with Jim's experience teaching for decades at The Institute for Transpersonal Psychology, I'd get a good critique--and support. This reader was a hefty 275-page volume! I had spent weeks at Green Library at Stanford University gathering and compiling all the resources I could find on poetry therapy and any related articles, etc.
 
photo: Ken Hively, LA Times
Jeremy Tarcher 
    
This opportunity to teach in a graduate psychology course was remarkable on many levels, not the least of which--I had just been given my Certification as a poetry therapist in the Spring!
 
Jim flipped through Seminar in Poetry Therapy: The Reclamation of Deep Language. He scanned the table of contents. He looked at me and said, "You should make a copy of this and send it to Jeremy Tarcher."
 
Jeremy Tarcher, of course, was the much-heralded publisher of books like The Aquarian Conspiracy, the breakthrough cancer care book, Getting Well Again in the late 70s and Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain and Writing the Natural Way. These are without a doubt some of the most important, some of the finest books available for raising human consciousness. What a positive thought my friend Jim was suggesting!
 
As I said, that was in Autumn--what Jim didn't know was this... I had spoken with Jeremy Tarcher in April.
 
Actually I had sent Jeremy P. Tarcher Inc. a sheaf of poetry asking if they would be interested in publishing my poems. I had sent that same sheaf of poems to a handful of other publishers with the same question. I had done my research and I knew that Tarcher had never published poetry. But I liked their work--so I said to myself: what the hell, I'll send these anyway.
 
Along with the poems I wrote a cover letter that described my interest in the healing potential of poetry. And here is a little side-bar story--to make money, I had been typing Jim Fadiman's correspondence from audio cassette. I had typed several letters over the months to Jeremy Tarcher. Jim and Jeremy were friends. But when I sent these poems to Jeremy I didn't disclose that--it was separate to me.
 
About five days after I mailed those poems I received a call from Jeremy Tarcher! His first words to me were almost exactly this, "We don't publish poetry. Poetry doesn't sell. But I like your poems. I am about to go on vacation, and I am going to take your poems with me."
 
What a thing to say.
 
We had a 45-minute conversation about my interest in poetry and healing. I talked about the work I was doing with children through the California Poets in the Schools program. Jeremy told me that he was married to the puppeteer and ventriloquist Shari Lewis. Jeremy didn't know that growing up as a very young child, I had created a puppet theater and I watched Shari Lewis on TV in 1961 and 1962. Jeremy had produced her show in those early years. He later told me: "I am the father of Lamb Chop." What I created at six years old was a puppet Russian sailor named Go-Go...who could solve any problem. Early on into thawing the cold war!
 
At the end of that first conversation, Jeremy said, "If you ever want to write anything about that (poetry and healing) let me know." Then he gave me the name of his assistant, Lisa Chadwick. Well, it seemed like a great opportunity being offered. But I closed that notebook with Lisa Chadwick's name in it and went on with my life. His comments about liking my poetry--his willingness to just call--I think that was more than enough for me at the time.
 
I was entering into the process of a divorce and I know that was requiring nearly all my attention. But then, eight months later, I had that exchange with Jim Fadiman and his urging me to contact Jeremy Tarcher.
 
About 18 years earlier, Ram Dass had told me, with cold compassion, "You couldn't get away if you tried." He was speaking about the intensity of my life at that moment.
 
Well, I think that same truth had come around to me in another more beneficent way--this relationship with Jeremy was meant to be. Jim wrote a cover letter of recommendation, I sent off the table of contents of the reader and a few other pages--it seemed too burdensome to send the whole thing!

A short time later, Jeremy Tarcher called me and said he would like to talk to me about writing a book. He asked me to describe what such a book would say. I did. In order to get my main point across I used a stanza from a poem by e. e. cummings:
 
the trick of finding what you didn't lose
(existing's tricky: but to live's a gift)
the teachable imposture of always
arriving at the place you never left
 
I told him my belief is that poetry is inherent and natural in human beings from birth and that my book would make the case for establishing or re-establishing our connection. Jeremy responded to that letter, writing back quickly, let's call your book Finding What You Didn't Lose.
 
And so it was and is.
 
While my relationship with Jeremy was, on the surface, based on straightforward business facts--he made an offer that I would write and he would publish that book. Jeremy P. Tarcher Inc. / Putnam would provide an advance. He had his people work with me on the development of the contents. They were so supportive of my vision. He found a superb editor, Laura Golden Bellotti, to work with me directly.

These days it would be unheard of to have such careful and personal attention given to a first time author. At no point, however, did I ever feel that our relationship was limited to some box of business.
 
Jeremy possessed gracefulness combined with directness. He brought a curiosity to the moment that he joined with practical advice. He had honesty that did not conflict with faith in my ability to come through. The rich interplay of those qualities, those dynamics, were present throughout our communication and the writing of Finding What You Didn't Lose and Poetic Medicine.
 
One time he mailed me The Future of Poetry--a visionary book by the sage Sri Aurobindo and another time he sent one of his own titles, Inevitable Grace: Breakthroughs in the Lives of Great Men and Women--Guides to Your Self-Realization by Piero Ferruccci. Both of these books inspired me and were very effective in helping me along.
 
It is hard to describe what I am feeling here--that someone would believe so much in me and give me such a life-changing opportunity--this is an immeasurable gift.
 
But I think that where Jeremy and I most deeply connected was our mutual belief that this mattered, that the world needed poetry-as-healer. That is what mattered most to him--not the potential of dollars alone. One time I asked Jeremy if he would give my work a testimonial and he said this:
 
We're all members of the Dead Poet's Society and John is disinterring these dead poets in each of us and bringing them back to life. It doesn't take long, if you are simulated, to find yourself writing things that you had no idea were in your heart.
 
Jeremy Tarcher, publisher
Los Angeles, California
 
You'll forgive me, I hope, if I say that I'm fond of this resurrection imagery, this sense that poetic medicine offers a second coming--very different from the Second Coming that Yeats envisioned.
 
Jeremy retired from publishing about six years after the publication of Poetic Medicine. We stayed in touch and I visited him a few time in Los Angeles. The last time we spent time together, about six years ago, he was already struggling with Parkinson's. But he had around him this rich aura of kindness and a sharp, alert, heightened awareness. It was so reflective of his "higher consciousness" books that he gave to us all. When I spoke to him in March of 2015, about six months before he died, I asked him if there was anything I could do for him. He said, with a great deal of sweetness, "Continue to be yourself."
 
Jeremy died on September 20, 2015.

Please click here and here for tributes to Jeremy Tarcher. 
 
*  *  *  *  *
Jim Olson
 
When I be gone:
Bricks be broken
Roses long dead
Trees no longer
Just practical instead--
The joy of making
Before the demise
Just a second of time
For eyes to surprise--
Be it no wonder
For Beauty has been
Just a second of time
Perhaps not again.
 
Jim Olson
 
Jim Olson
In these reflections, I've been commenting on people who were directly responsible for my development as a poetry therapist, for my love for service, for the forward moving of my career. Jeremy and Stephen were friends too; they gave so much by their example and love.
 
Now I'm going to write about another person who was also a friend, but whose blessings are different--not entirely different, but let me try to explain.
 
In the summer of 1997 I was looking for a place to live. The condo I had rented in Mountain View, CA for about a year and a half was suddenly going to be sold. I did something I'd done about ten years before--I put a notice in the Palo Alto Weekly:
 
Writer seeks apartment or cottage to rent in or near a garden setting. Please call (650) 938-2717.
 
I was in Palm Springs giving a workshop when I received a call from James Olson who owned an apartment building in Mountain View--actually on the same road that I was living on--just at the other end of it. There was an apartment coming available in this L-shaped 7 apartment complex. Mr. Olson said it was in a garden setting. If I wanted to, I could come over to see it.
 
Well, I had to first get back from Palm Springs but he was willing to wait. I was grateful for the good fortune of my little notice getting noticed.
 
One early evening in mid-August I spoke with Jim, the owner and landlord of Park Garden Apartments outside in the inner courtyard of the apartments. He had been rightly annoyed that I'd made an appointment earlier and had missed it--but fortunately, I must have made a good enough impression that he forgave this blunder and gave me a rental document to sign.
 
Apparently I left the line about yearly income blank. Maybe I didn't know, maybe I didn't want to incriminate myself? He didn't make a point of it at the time although he would remind me of it for the next eighteen years.
 
"You didn't write down what your income was!" And he would fish out the agreement and wave it in front of my face.
 
After this "interview" I walked slowly out of this unusual and beautiful place. In the outer courtyard there was a place for roses. Two rows of three rose bushes. I glanced down at the rose bush on the far left, the one directly in line with my front window, of Apartment #1. Next to the rose bush was a flower seed packet. The packet had the name of that particular rose bush:
 
Pure Poetry. Yes. Pure poetry, indeed.
 
Two months later, upon the publication of Poetic Medicine, a book launch was held in the Villa Rosa courtyard. Something about the beauty and presence of this place was joined with the possibility and power of that book to make a difference.
 
Eighteen+ years later I can say that this place has been my refuge, haven and sanctuary. While I have gone out around the country, around the world--meeting thousands of people, meeting one person and then another person, coming back to this place is what sustains me probably more than anything else I could name. I know that my deepest sustainer is more mysterious and more unknown than a simple place--yet as a creature of this place, this place on earth, I bow to how it helps me.
 
Villa Rosa After Dusk
 
Silence of leaf &
trunk, presence
in stem & root
each unique shape
that is, that thirsts,
is a whole life
that drinks
for & from
what is real, lifts
to the sun a secret
learned first underfoot,
as a whisper felt
& then, as thunder
where deep places
wet with the speechless
moon, shine & dream
into phases that grow
& fall away, return
at night to silence, at dawn
to song.
 
John Fox

And "this place" is what it is because of Jim Olson. He had an intention and a vision that came to pass. He wrote in an essay about his creation of it:
 
I have always admired the courtyards of my friends homes in Mexico and New Orleans. I loved just being in them and admiring the flowers; bougainvillea, hibiscus, palms, roses and a myriad of other plants with their colors, leaves and individual fragrances.
 
I hadn't realized it but I had mentally stored these images in my mind - for some future use? Perhaps. . .
 
As we often think to ourselves: "someday...I want to create such a lovely, colorful and peaceful space for my own home. But when?"
 
Now was the time for me--and here was the place for all of us to enjoy, day and night. I envisioned a magical transformation in this space for evening entertaining with carefully placed lighting into the trees, on the walkways and in the brick planters.
 
This entire area must invite the occupants to walk around and "discover" for themselves some place of special delight for them to enjoy--during a dinner party or casual BBQ or get-together without being in a contrived, cute, clever or cluttered outside living area. That was it! An outside living area that must have the ambiance of being here for many years--not looking polished and new or formal and definitely not formulated or pretentious...
 
There is more wonderful richness to it than I am sharing here but...you may get enough of the picture.
 
But that is not the whole picture!
 
This special place came with built-in ramifications. One of those was that Jim struggled with alcoholism. He freely admitted it and one thing I admired about him was he didn't deny this bottom-line fact.
 
Yet, living in such proximity--it's such a small complex, after all--we could not, I could not, avoid the impact of his mood swings and paranoia, angry outbursts and apologies. He could rail and carry on seemingly for hours about the smallest and most inconsequential detail in my behavior (from my perspective) or offenses of others that annoyed him.
 
Book Launch Party of Poetic Medicine, September 1997 at Villa Rosa
Yet, living in such proximity--it's such a magical and LIVING place, this Villa Rosa, as he came to call it awhile after I moved in--we could not, I could not avoid the impact of learning about the way leaves placed next to one another create magic.  Plants love to grow around Jim Olson.  I found delight in watching the Puck-side of Jim emerge with mischief and surprise in his eyes. I often felt a deep hope that more adults could retain this child-like spirit their later years.

Jim was a kind of Zen Master without profile. His capacity to observe detail in both nature and human beings was a constant lesson to me. When he was speaking with me if he would notice that my attention wandered a millisecond (I'm really not kidding!) from him, he would let me know. I became a better listener. 
 
In the midst of this, I watched Jim survive and come back from triple by-pass surgery, significant loss from colon cancer, and other maladies. He fought tenaciously to come back from all. It is to Jim's great credit that in the last year of his life he stopped drinking. I brought him so many large containers of Colombian coffee!
 
 
You see, I decided to be, through all of this, Jim's friend. I would not allow myself be a doormat, but I decided that I would not abandon that friendship. And I feel that he also let a sense of friendship be more important when business could have ruled all. It was not the only thing but it mattered--Jim could have charged far more for rent than he did. For eighteen years he kept rents for all of us far below market rates. He knew I am sure that this was helping The Institute for Poetic Medicine.

(This change will be a significant issue for me and for the Institute going forward--but that is something for another time.) 
 
He once wrote this encouragement:
 
I must say, John, how you help others sometimes at your own sacrifice, is the quality of uniqueness--a special human quality "that makes man human." You sometimes may not realize your generous qualities, I do!! Something of the child in you--but of an old maturity, a depth you express, in words--just you John, just you! Jim.
 
Jim had a mind attuned to real estate and business but his heart and soul were that of an artist--and for sculpture and painting he was masterful. But he was just as happy to make something whimsical and silly.  Like all the varied leaves in his garden, he felt each of his creations had a place in the landscape of life. 

One time, during the Iraq War in 2003 he was so upset that he channeled his horror that the US went to war by creating a sculpture of two heads of Vets-- out of styrofoam! You can't see it so well in this photograph but the injuries of war are apparent. Jim, who was a Vet himself, had a large heart for all who suffered, not only Americans; and in this case, because of the failure of political leaders who wield power unwisely.

Jim grew more and more frail in his early 80s. I fetched groceries for him in the last year and a half. Oh, and plenty of Marlboro's 100s. He would say one day, "I'm a tough little queen. I'm going to make it!" And then on another day, he would implore in tears how ready he was to go.

 
On the morning of Tuesday, January 26, I went up to his apartment, because he had not responded to my calls, and I found Jim had died. We don't know why. I had called him the day before to ask if I could get him anything. He said it could wait. I sat with his body for some time--I got his other friend, Cornelia who lives in Apt. 3. We lit a candle. Then I called the police and his nephew, Michael, his close friend, Sally. Someone called the mortuary. We sat with him through all of this.

A few days before he had told me I ought to cut my hair because it made me look younger. I will miss Jim's mother-hen advice.
 
The many talents of Jim Olson included those as painter and sculptor: Top, "Summer Sizzle"; bottom left, "Male Torso"; bottom right, "Oh Bo" 
The poem that begins this section on Jim Olson--he knew that once he was gone the beauty that enthralled all of us at Villa Rosa would not be so valued, once the building was sold, that one poignant line: "just practical instead." That says so much about what Jim Olson valued. I got a chance to learn that.


So I know that whatever my next chapter might be, I'll remember this place and the one who created it. 

Lantern

The Lantern Carrier
for Lisa Friedlander

You stand tall in this dark cave
Holding an old-fashioned lantern
That swings slightly in your upheld right hand;
The only sound in the songless air.
You step with care into the empty
Cold place of my sadness.
You walk beside me in this place
Where there are no answers.
You have come down out of the glare
That does not allow me to see.  
Carrier of this light, you are
A revelation, an unexpected presence,
Like waves glowing from within
Under the barren moon.  
You slip under prison doors,
Make brightness last inside coal.
Stir embers of gray morning aflame.
Who you are is what this light is:
The one you carry with you,
The one I need just now.

~ John Fox
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