"The fight is won or lost far away from the witnesses, behind the lines, in the gym, and out there on the road; long before I dance under those lights." - Muhammad Ali
Why isn't getting fit easier? I don't know. There are days I wish it all came easy, but it doesn't for me. This morning was quite a mental battle to get out of bed early enough to run before the heat got too bad. I did it, but only after hitting the snooze for thirty minutes and finding all kinds of excuses to stay in bed. Finally I got sick enough of listening to the internal fight that I got up and ran. It felt great. I knew it would, but it's still a battle.
Same with food. Ten years into my journey and I still have an angel on one shoulder and a little devil on the other when it comes to food choices. Take my favorite rationalization: "How bad can it be?" Oh trust me it can be bad. Here are a few examples that I can recall ordering over the years and then checking online when I got home. It's a sinking feeling to realize you just blew a whole day's worth of calories in one meal. Especially if you think you were making a good choice.
MiMi's Cafe lunch portion Chicken Sundried Tomato Penne 1800 calories, 99 grams of fat
Bob Evans Cranberry Chicken Pecan Salad 1100 calories/63 grams of fat
Chipotle Chicken Burrito 1200 calories/53 grams of fat
Scrambler Marie's Veggie Omelet w/Hash Browns 1200 calories/68 grams of fat
Arby's Market Fresh Turkey & Swiss 710 calories/28 grams of fat (A McDonalds hamburger is only 250 calories!)
I believe one of the most important weapons in this battle is awareness. Keep taking the time to look up how many calories are in the foods you eat. Try to do your research ahead of time. Keep a mental list of "go-to" places where you know what to order and how many calories are in the meal. Prepare for it like you are in a fight for your life.
Another important part of this is your reason. Why do you want to change? Why is this important enough to you to put your time, your sweat, your financial resources towards it? For me, it has always been about feeling better about myself. Exercise does that for me. Making informed, healthy food choices does that for me. I hate beating myself up, but I do it if I start skipping my workouts or eating a lot of junk. So I refocus over and over and over, knowing that I have a say in whether I am moving in a positive or negative direction.
Two years ago this month, I injured my back. It has taken a long time to heal, but the worst part was thinking my fitness was somehow being taken from me. I couldn't run. I couldn't lift. Suddenly, I would give anything to do the same workouts I had been dreading a month ago. I realized how important moving my body is to me. I am willing to fight for it, so I have. That meant working out on the Stepmill for 45 minutes, which was not fun, but worth it to keep going.
Being healthy and feeling good about myself is worth fighting for. I defend it, I cherish it, and I am committed to it. I am not perfect at it, but I'll never give up. My fight is lifelong, but it gets easier. I learn from my mistakes. I believe in myself a little more every day and trust in my ability to make choices that support my health, my fitness, my soul and my life.
You may feel like you are struggling. Take a moment and be thankful. Don't take your ability to go out for a walk or to lift some weights for granted. It's a gift worth fighting for.