I am open to receive.

I am open to receive your touch.

I am open to receive your admiration.

I am open to feel your love.

I am open to feel my pain.

I am open to feel my pleasure.

I am open to life.

Are you open? Are you closed? It's such a paradox. I see it in myself. I see it in my friends and clients.   We have experiences, feelings, and sensations we want, we desire, we crave, and even ones we work really hard to create... yet at the very same time, we push those experiences, feelings and sensations away. Unconsciously, we've closed an invisible door. We've put up a transparent wall. It looks like we're open. We think we're open to love, to life, to joy, to pleasure and we're not.

It's shocked me over the years to see the subtle and not so subtle ways I'd closed myself off to what I thought I most desired. As I wrote in my last newsletter, I had closed myself off to happiness because I thought I'd lose my motivation and because I thought (in some unconscious silly way) that it could hurt others. And, I didn't want to feel too happy because then I'd be at risk of being hurt or disappointed. I hadn't completely closed to it, I just wasn't fully open to it's potential. I and those I care most deeply about missed out.