a story from Wonderland by Hitomi
Writer's block
Don's suffering

Greetings!

 
Dec. 9th              Weather:Sunny
 
 
Before Thanksgiving, we were living in the apartment like this.....
 
 
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After Thanksgiving, now we live like this.

 
 
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What happened was the owner of this apartment, who is an activist in the animal protection organization, couldn't afford to leave a room open for my girlfriend and me any longer.
"The economy is hitting us hard. I have to rent it out for human beings who can pay me. I am really sorry. I wish you find a nice home."
It sounded very cruel, considering he is still an activist for animal rights. But overall he was nice enough to give us home and food when we were straying on the street and struggling to survive.
When I was preparing myself back to the life on the street, Don came over and patted my head.
"I can't put you guys out on the street on holiday seasons. From now on you guys are my roommates."
So my girlfriend and I relocated ourselves from the first floor to the second floor.
Living with Don, I discovered a lot of things I didn't know about him.
He likes his routine and he always has a certain way he likes. He wakes up at 7; 00, makes his bed, turns on TV and walks to the kitchen to make coffee. Until the coffee gets ready, he brushes his teeth, flosses his teeth and then checks his teeth in the mirror. For his morning coffee, he always chooses a green cup among all the cups he keeps in the cabinet and he always uses the same silver spoon for his morning cereal with raisins in it. He comes back at 4;00 from his work , goes pick up Kenny and Lisa at school and takes care of them until Mrs. Malchovich comes back from her store.
His dinner is usually either "In and Out" or "Taco Bell", but he never eats directly from their paper bags. Instead he nicely places his meals on the plate which he is fond of with ketchup on the side and then put beer right next to the plate on the table.
 
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 Once Sylvia and I accidentally used his plate and spoon for a guest. He got very mad at us.
"This is my plate! You can use any plates in the cabinet but don't use mine. Look at the pattern. My plate has leaves on it. You see the leaves around the edge?   This silver spoon with a little flower carving on the tip of it? You see right here? This is my spoon. OK?  Pay little more attention to the details. Don't use mine!"
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On weekends he goes out and does lot of fun things, but  he spends his most of weekday evenings sitting at the desk and working on his script or reading books about how to write a screenplay to educate himself. He works hard on his writing every day.
Watching him doing his routine became my routine. Most of all, I enjoy the moment curing up at his feet and dozing off while he works on his script at the desk. It became my favorite moment.
 
But for these 10 days or so, Don was spending his most of his evenings lying on the couch and watching TV. I didn't see him sit at the desk and type on the keyboard.
 
writers block don on the couch 
 
When I saw him grabbing a hamburger directly from the brown bag and squeezing it into his mouth without caring about ketchup he wasted on the carpet although he noticed the red stain there, I had to say something.
"What happened to your scrip!"
 
"I don't feel like writing." said Don, grabbing French fries form the bag into his mouth.
"I don't have any new ideas left in me.  I don't even have any words coming out of me anymore."
Wiping the ketchup on his hand with his jeans, Don answered without looking at me.
"I realized how boring my story was. I don't know where to go with it now. I wish I hadn't started this. But then if I quit now, all my time and energy I spent on this will be wasted.  I can't move ahead, but I can't go back. I am trapped. I am a mouse in the mouse trap." "That's extreme."I said.
"You don't know what it's like! I hate to see my computer there. Would you please put it somewhere I don't have to see it?"
What Don said shocked me because I had never seen him like this before. It made me really sad.
"Do you want me to keep it in the closet for a while?" I asked in a concerned way.
"No. Not in the closet. Remember I change my clothes every day?"
"How about keeping it in the fridge then? Just to let it chill out."
"No. I open the fridge every 30 minute. Plus I would rather my script to be fermented and go rotten. Maybe it will turn out better like gourmet cheese."
Don grabbed the remote control and kept changing the chanels.I took some bath towels from the bath room and covered the computer with them so that Don couldn't see it any more. I was sad, but I did it for him. I didn't want to be in the living room with Don, so I walked to the bedroom leaving Don on the couch. Right before closing the door, I heard Don shout at me,
"I still feel it's there!"

I was sad about Don being this way. But I knew Don wouldn't stay like this for ever. Don is dedicated to his script. I was sure he knew better. In order to take my thoughts away from my mind, the best thing to do was drawing. I opened my sketchbook and took crayons out.
                                             writers block drawing lulu 
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I don't remember how long I was drawing. When I looked outside the window, the moon was high above and the outside was very dark and quiet.
 Then I heard the door clicked.
writers blovk don't stop my flow"Let's go to Everybody's coffee. They are closing in 5minutes. We can still make it to get some coffee."
Standing at the door was Don, scratching his belly and yawning out loud.
"No, I want to draw now. We go tomorrow."
"Just five minutes. You can draw after coming back here."
Don scoffed.
 
"No, I 'm drawing now.  You always tell me not to stop your flow, but you are interrupting my flow now. Please don't stop my flow."
 I felt bad to say things like this to Don, but I didn't want to stop drawing now. My drawing was almost done, but I still needed to color some parts.Then I heard the door closed.

In a few hours, I completed my drawing. I loved it. I stood up with my drawing in my hands to ask Don to flame it so that I could take it to Everybody's coffee tomorrow.
When I opened the door in the bedroom, the first thing I saw was the bath towels at the door, which I had used to cover Don's computer with. Then I saw Don sitting at the desk and vigorously typing on the key board. Next to the keyboard were a pile of how-to books about screenplay writing. Don was back working on his script. 
 
                                 writers block back to work
  writers block smiling lulu  
I slowly walked toward him and politely asked, "Could you write the title and flame my drawing, please? I want to take it to Everybody's coffee tomorrow."
Don turned to me with his eyes burning with passions.  
"Could we do that tomorrow? Right now, DO NOT STOP MY FLOW."
 
My drawing at Everybody's coffee
 
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