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Maridel Bowes, M.A.
www.evolvingjourney.com





In This Issue
Died and Gone to Maui
The Back Story
What Happened ...


 
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Died and Gone to Maui
 
 
It seems to be a common story on the Hawaiian Islands: people who come for a vacation and instead of going home, cash in their plane tickets.They're already home. I've met two of these people myself--one on a black sand beach on The Big Island years ago and one on Maui last month.
 
My story is a little different.
 
As most of you know (because that's where this newsletter left off), I headed off to Maui almost a month ago for a facilitator's retreat with a company called "The Peaceful Woman" -- all in preparation to come back in the future and lead other women through this experiential  passage based on Hawaiian spirituality.
 
But I didn't tell you the back story...
 
 
 
The Back Story
 
Some weeks before, at the close of my interview with Peaceful Woman CEO, Cher Bertrand, I'd been accepted as a facilitator. I was, of course, elated! What an amazing development in my life! But that night, instead of being lulled to sleep by visions of lapping blue waters, a giant wave hit me and I began to cry. The next wave was bigger and I started to sob. Have you ever done this? Started crying before you know what you're crying about? The answer rode in on the third or fourth wave: "I'm moving to Maui," I heard my inner voice say. "My life as I know it is over."
 
I understand that your very first impulse might not be sympathy. Poor thing--she's received guidance to move to Maui. Boo Hoo. But the truth is I didn't want to move to Maui. Too far from my children and grandchildren, my family in Idaho, my closest friend, Sandi. Too far from Dr. Amber, my health care provider, my community of friends, and from Joe. How could I live without Joe the Trader of all things grocery? 
 
I hoped to wake up in the morning, shake my head and say, "Whew! That was a little over the top wasn't it?" and giggle at my midnight drama. But the message was still in bed with me when I awoke. So I tucked the experience away with a cute little technique we won't call denial. It went like this: "We'll see." (Didn't you used to hate it when your parents said that?) But in the course of a few days, the message arrived another way, not once but twice. Two intuitive souls,  Johnnie and Marsha, independently said to me after hearing about my gig with The Peaceful Woman (but not about my guidance), "You're moving to Maui."  
 
"I don't' think so," I said. "Too far from my blah, blah blah...Trader Joe's...blah...blah...blah" Now we'll call it denial.
 
The week before my trip, I had myself in a state of full-blown resistance meaning that besides feeling funky and blue, I was saying things like, "What's so great about Hawaii, anyway?" and "Maybe I won't even want to be a facilitator." Uh huh. Then off I went on Hawaiian Airline with its lovely purple interior and Iz singing, "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" to me. 
 
 
What Happened ...
 
 
 
Within the first hour of arriving, as I gathered with other women on the green ocean-front lawn outside our hotel, the whales came to greet us...up close and very personal.
 
That evening, tears streamed down my face as my co-facilitators and I, dressed in kihei (Hawaiian sarongs) stood on the beach of a small bay at sunset and were welcomed with ceremonial blessings, chanting, singing and great love.
 
Later, in our first circle, I learned that in the group of nine other facilitators-to-be, one was from Upstate New York (where both of my parents were from); another from Portland (where all of my children and grandchildren reside); another from Boise (where my mother, siblings and nephews and nieces live); and another, my roommate for the week, from Cleveland, Ohio where my life began.
 
Then I awoke on my first-ever morning in Maui, Hawaii. And in that space between waking consciousness and opening my eyes, I saw my own face. It was a clear screenshot, flashing behind my eyelids and then vanishing.
 
"We'll see" ...the words came back to me. It hadn't yet been twenty-four hours and yes, I did see. I was called to Maui and to the conscious community of peaceful women who are gathering there. To my soul, it already felt like home.
 
With each day of the passage, confirmations filled my awareness and my heart. I didn't know when. I didn't know how. I didn't know why completely, but I did know that I'd be coming back to stay.  
 
So why "Died and Gone to Maui" for a title?  Because when your life is over as you've known it, it's a death--requiring all the stages of grieving, all the letting go...along with intermingled celebration. Kind of like champagne at the funeral of a long and happy life...because a new life has begun! 
 
 
'Til We Cross Paths Again,
 
 Maridel 
 
 
 
From Here ... The Passage and the Blog Maridel with Kihei
 
My Peaceful Woman Passage, an experiential feast of revelation, exploration and joy in Mother Maui's classroom, is beyond description. Yet in the coming weeks, with the help of video, photos, and my electronic pen, I hope to pass along to you the spirit of this phenomenal experience.
 
So stay tuned for a "Special Edition" or two from Constant Contact and a personal invitation to come play with me.
 
In the meantime, I'm turning my Evolving Journey blog into its own special edition: "Moving to Maui," a log of the questions, fears, graces and tears evoked by this process. Here's a link to the first post, The Island Calls
 

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