My Dear Friends,
As the powerful Borg told us in
Star Trek, "Resistance is futile!" So,
I decided to stop fighting and just say "yes."
So this last month, that has required me to say yes to less income, less
clarity, less energy, less a sense of knowing what the future holds. I have had to say yes to my darkness, yes to
my doubt, yes to my whining, yes to my petty grievances, yes to all I wished
was NOT SO!!
It took most of August and a few
days into September, then just a day ago, the rains came again to Phoenix and I
could truly let go. As the rain washed
the air and cleansed the land, I
finally felt gratitude and a sense of peace.
I went outside and stood on the
earth and let the rain wash my body. I
joined with all the elements of earth and sky and said "yes" with all my
heart. I embraced what I had resisted
and let it be healed within me. I felt
a baptism of the Earth's love and bounty.
I stopped asking "why" or
"when". I stopped trying to bargain
with the Universe. I stopped begging
and pleading for something else. I stopped
and faced what I had not wanted and put my arms out to all my weaknesses and shortcomings,
and embraced my darkness. I brought all
of me into the light and now we again are one.
Without the resistance and without the inner battle, I have found peace
again.
Yesterday a friend and I went to
the school of a teacher who has been struggling with a classroom in a 40 year
old church that has moldy carpet, ancient bathrooms, and few supplies. It feels very much like a punishment
cell. Add to that, many of the students
in her class have special needs and many are often shunted to the darker
corners of society, overlooked and unseen.
She, too, had been fighting
against this place, angry and resentful that it was not more beautiful and more
supportive and that those she had asked for help had not been fulfilling their
promises. The three of us asked that
all be brought into balance. In the
process, she remembered feeling left out and unsupported for much of her
life. Breathing into the past, she
began to feel her power again and to accept that this is a place where she can
now make new choices and have a brighter place for her and for her
students.
As she allows now her creative
power to enliven and enlighten the space, she heals her past and brings many
gifts to herself and to her students.
May we all be so brave.
With all my heart, I believe that
whatever is happening for each of us right now contains the exact ingredients
we need for our healing and to bring forth the new model of ourselves. Look again at what is in your world right
now that you don't want or like. See if
there is a way to embrace it and to activate a new pattern that is holistic and
healing for you.
My wish for all of us is that we
let go of all that does not serve us.
Sometimes that means transforming it by loving it, integrating it,
reframing it, and choosing to love ourselves enough to know that if it is here
for us, it is here as part of a greater plan to lift us into what we are meant
to be.
Let us join together on 09/09/09 clear of mind, open
hearted and trusting again in our wisdom and in our innocence. Let us join together, old and young, frail
and strong, hearts and hands to birth what can now live: Global Grace: a world built with new vision, great compassion, and the
strongest power of all; the healing power of love.
With Great Love & Compassion For Us All,
Samarah
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