Brandon Iron was extremely aggressive when it came to trying to change what was not apart of the original contract. I was only suppose to do a solo scene however when I got there he was very pushy. Keep in mind I just turned 19 years old, I arrive alone when there should of been some other girls there so he said wrapping up other scenes, doing makeup, etc. along with an entire camera crew. Well, it was just us. Of course, many girls in general but especially in porn, we should know better then to trust a pornographic director however, in our defense nobody, not anyone has the right to violate your rights, mislead you, misguide you and under verbal contract intentionally lie to you. Please do keep in my age especially, I was 19 years old. Do you really think he thought I would know any different? I doubt that. So try to understand I was naive and had no idea the manipulation this man had planned on.

 

     First thing, gives a cocktail beverage on the scene. I took it. I was nervous as hell and knew by looking at him that I was going to need it just to get through my solo scene. He had me sign a consent without explaining it the way it should of been. He completely made it seem like no big deal and oh its just legal jumbo that says you need to be 18. Pressure pressure pressure. I said I'm doing a solo scene for this much and that's it. He said sure. Just sign the bottom.

 

     I knew very little, if that, nothing, about what I was signing. Well if I knew just by looking that I was signing a legal document with Satan maybe I would of stopped, but he deceived me. Brandon Iron lied to me to make sure his evil and selfish needs were met. He took advantage of young girl who knew nothing. If I could afford a lawyer I would of sued him for all his worth. This man pressured me repeatedly. I said no after no after no after no. He continued to pour me alcohol beverages one after the next. His intentions were morally wrong. He deserves to be in prison, but because of who he is in the industry, because I was just another "broken-home porn whore" to him, he didn't stop when he should of never started. Giving alcohol to a minor is illegal period. Slipping illegal drugs into a minor drink and forcing her to have any type of sexual foul play is 100% against the law in the State of California.

 

     This 40 something year old man made me and told me that I had to submit to his sexual movie rules. I said no. I was unwilling. I know my rights. However from what I remember right before everything went blank was his tone of voice and threatening my life, verbally assaulting me, and having my mouth covered by his hand in an extremely forceful manner. I blacked out after that. Woke up in my car with the cash amount originally promised.

 

     I have a very blurry and distorted vision of that day. However soon enough after my visions were coming back, a movie which I never agreed to partake in came out. I can't even tell you how violated and wronged inside I've been. To watch yourself in a PORN MOVIE for the whole world to see, when you were terribly violated and don't remember at all what your doing and you just know by watching this was not you. It was someone else. You know it isn't you. That is unjust and so unfair. He deserves to be punished for breaking so many laws and for his internal immorality.

 

     All I knew was what the agency (MetroTalentManagement.com) and I agreed on which was one solo foot fetish scene and it turned into more than that I found out later when the movies came out. I was sexually violated while being drugged by the director/producer Brandon Iron.

 

     I am a strong person. I do not know why or how I ended up getting into porn. Maybe a lack of self worth at that time, financially incapable of supporting myself and been given this glossy option by a deceiving agency during a time I was lost, weak and hopeless. Regardless of the reason, pornography is destroying so many lives in the US Country. We are raising a nation to be ok with abuse and violence. I knew nothing about porn before I did it. And unlike the average porn star I quit. I left and I took what was left of me. So many, too many and almost all of them who get started become a slave to porn industry with no hope or any other skills to get out. Most of them pick up drug and alcohol addiction, pick up diseases such as AIDS and HIV. The pain occurred is very hard to repair. Most of them stay because recovery is too hard.

 

     These porn companies deceive young girls. They lie. They catch them when they are weak and no nothing about life. I look back on this painful past and see a bunch of deceivers. Liars. Old men condoning to young girls, teenagers, I was a teenager girl, to alcohol, pain killers, cocaine, crystal meth, heroin, any type of prescription drug is sold to these girls for whatever they want. Just go to a doctors office in the "Valley". It's disturbing. An unheard epidemic of pain and suffering these girls are trapped in.

 

PORN IS DESTROYING OUR NATION.

 

Amber

 

     A few months after I became saved, and before I became involved with the Pink Cross Foundation, the Lord put a burden on my heart for those involved in porn. He moved my heart to start praying for them....to desperately cry out to Him for their salvation.

 

 

 

     Pornography wants you, it wants your husband or wife, it wants your son and daughter, your grandchildren, and your in-laws. It doesn't share well, and it doesn't leave easily. It is a cruel master, and seeks more slaves.

     Abraham Lincoln, when he faced a similar war over freedom, said, "If all do not join now to save the good old ship of the Union on this voyage nobody will have a chance to pilot her on another voyage." All hands on deck. The battle is on for sanity and serenity, for peace and prosperity, for today, and for all our tomorrows.

 

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     I was silly, happy and outgoing little girl. My mother taught me good values and I knew my dad loved me in his own way.  I also had two older brothers.

 

     When I was in the 4th grade, my parents divorced and my whole world crashed.  My brother who was 2 years older than me began to abuse me physically and mentally. I remember thinking that the abuse from my brother was normal.  I just accepted it.  If a friend came over, he would scream at me and get violent.  Eventually, none of my friends wanted to come over anymore.  He was finally sent to live with my Dad when I was around 16.  My mother fell apart because of it and became an alcoholic.  I had to go live with a family friend in order to help my mom deal with the trauma of everything going on around her.

 
     Through all this drama, I was still a "good girl" during my teens.  I kept all the rules at home and school.  I never broke curfew and stayed a virgin until I was 18.  I didn't kiss a boy until I was 16 years old and he eventually broke my heart.  He knew I wouldn't go past the kissing stage with him so he decided to have sex with my best friend instead. I didn't date again until I was 18.  I was too brokenhearted.  (That's probably why I still feel like if I don't have sex with a guy, he's not going to want to be with me.  I've tried making them wait.  They don't stick around more than a month so I feel like I always have to sex in order to keep a guy. )
    

     I began to act rebellious and started hanging out with the "Goths".  I became a popular metal head/goth girl.  I even started doing phone sex a month before I graduated high school right when I turned 18.  It was my first job. That was the beginning of my sex work lifestyle.

     I went into stripping at 20 years old when I was lured in by a female hairdresser who probably got kickbacks for finding girls.  I was dancing at a club and the club photographer came in and asked to shoot naked photos of me for magazines.  Then it went to shooting me with another girl in magazines and then it was me and guys in magazines and then it turned into solo videos, girl/girl videos and boy/girl videos and a few shoots with me and multiple performers. It was a progression that finally led me into the porn industry.

     I worked in porn for 10 years with breaks in between. My work name was Neesa and I did about 27 movies.  My last shoot was November 2006. It was a very abusive, frightening and unsanitary experience for me.  They reuse dirty sex toys all the time on porn sets.  Most of the time, the companies don't want to purchase a new sex toy. Which start at $10. That's how cheap they are. I always saw girls that had sore vaginas.  We would want to take a bigger break to try to regain our composure after enduring painful scenes, but the directors, camera men, etc., would stress that they "needed to get of there as soon as possible".  And the company wouldn't want them to have to pay their employees extra time.  So, most the time, there wasn't time for a shower to take after shoots. Not to mention doing shoots on couches that they used for other shoots.  I doubt they paid to clean it after each time it got used.

     In the worst scene and moment of my life, I was raped and verbally and mentally abused while making a video with Max Hardcore. It was the most horrible and degrading experience I ever had. I was in complete shock and horror. After that scene was shot, I got tested at AIM (Adult Industry Medical Clinic).  I was horrified to find out that I was positive with Chlamydia/Gonorrhea in the throat.  We didn't have vaginal or anal sex because my HIV test wasn't ready yet.  So he insisted on an oral scene and right after that scene I tested positive for the two STD's.  I called Dr. Sharon Mitchell to let her know.  She asked Max to come in and test.  I'm sure she told him which girl, and what the diseases were, even before he came in.  Of course he would take Zithromax before he got retested as Sharon wouldn't want to lose one of her biggest clients. They care about money. That's it. Sharon Mitchell called me after he tested and called me a liar. "He didn't give it to you. His test came back negative". She said in a rude, ambivalent manner. This is the clinic that claims to keep us safe. It's a joke.

      I left porn 3 ½ years ago because I just couldn't do it anymore, especially after the rape. I found out about The Pink Cross Foundation at a booth at AVN. I think very highly of The Pink Cross team and Shelley Lubben. They have taught me important information about the industry that I should have known before I even got in.  They treat me like I am human. They are very caring.  Shelley sends me care packages often.  And they are filled with love, information, great books.etc.  It put tears in my eyes.  I felt so loved.  It had been a long time since someone loved me like that.  She and the organization don't force religion on anyone.  I went to her and she treats me with love and respect. I like being around girls that are just like me - FORMER porn actresses.  I am very thankful for Shelley's team and all of their prayers.

 

     Since I met Shelley and heard that God has a plan for my life, I decided to leave the sex business for good. I have been stripping to make ends meet but now I know that God is with me and wants me to leave. I went to school for being a dental assistant so I am going to try and get a job. It's not easy right now because I know I have some health issues to deal with because of everything I've done. But I feel God really working in my life so Im not going to give up. Please pray for me.

 

Love, Marcy