Inside Danica's Closet
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Prologue
I sat there. Looking into the desolate night, hands covered in blood. I had been there before, in a position where my hands were covered in blood. I could easily tell that the sirens were screaming in acceleration, coming in my direction. They weren't close. But still, I felt them and that feeling for certain turned to hearing. Like when your heart is pounding so fast that you can hear the beats because you feel them almost coming through your chest. That was exactly how I was hearing the sirens. I could feel them. I knew right then and there that I was in deep shit and I had to think fast to get out of it.
This wasn't like before. This wasn't self-defense. I intentionally caused this man's demise. I got off before. I had killed a man before. I had injured even more. This time things might not wrap themselves up into a pretty little bow and just go away. This time, things would be different. I had to get my story together.
Why had my skeletons come tumbling out of the closet when I least expected them to? I was hearing my mother's voice ringing loud in my ears, "What's done in the dark will come to the light." She loved to talk in proverbs. Fuck proverbs. Where were those damn proverbs when my father's foot was knee deep in her ass? I was there. I was there when she didn't even know I was. I was the reason that he had stopped acting like a crazed man and started to love her like he had once before. She didn't know the half.
At that moment, I didn't have time to blame my mother for her choices. Why she chose to stay with my father was her decision to make. My issues were much deeper than hers would ever be. Her only indiscretion was in loving a man that didn't love her. I had too many indiscretions to mention.
I had tried to run from my demons. I packed my shit and left the only state I had ever known as home and moved just to get away from them. I left my family, just to get away from them. But the damn light just had to find me. Why couldn't what I had done in the dark just stay there? I tried to change my life. I tried to change my ways. I did everything in my power to honestly make a change for the better. I tried to live a normal life. Normal apparently wasn't for me.
I could still feel them coming. Someone had heard. Someone had called 911. This was another indiscretion of mine. I just had to move to the city. I should have stayed in the country. Right then I was missing my log cabin. The place that was hidden in the woods where nosy ass neighbors couldn't hear a damn thing would have been ideal in my current situation. That was a place where I couldn't be found in the damn yellow pages. I missed being able to do what ever I wanted to do and not have to worry about people finding out.
It was too late for those thoughts. The deed was now done. I couldn't run away from everything and now my past had caught up with me. This time it wasn't self-defense. This time it was murder. I wanted to kill this man for what he had done to me. I was sweating profusely. Sweat mixed with blood. This was not my blood. My thoughts seemed to swirl in my head on repeat.
Sirens were screaming. First, I felt them. Now I heard them loud and clear. This time they were much louder than my subconscious had first acknowledged. I calculated how long it would take them to make it up to the fourth floor. I calculated how much time I had left as a free woman. I calculated what a mess I had made of my life. It could have all been so simple. But I fucked that up. Excuse my vulgarity. It doesn't matter.
I heard them coming up the stairs. I didn't bother to run. I didn't bother to wash off the blood. I didn't bother to hide the murder weapon. I just sat there. I waited for them to bust my door open. If I didn't get my story together, they would take me away.