ACIM Edmonton - Sarah's Reflections 
Lesson 4 These thoughts do not mean anything. They are like the things I see in this room [on this street, from this window, in this place.] Sarah's Commentary: How good are you are watching the thoughts you are thinking about? We are thinking all the time. The mind is very noisy but we are not paying attention all the time to what our thoughts are about. Our thoughts dictate our feelings. All feelings come from thoughts. When we say, "I can't help it....... that is just the way I feel" we are assuming that we are victims of our circumstances and that the feelings have originated from something outside of us. No, it is all about our choice as to how we see events that are basically neutral. There is no 'outside'. Thus we are now moving ahead with this exercise by being shown that ultimately our thoughts have no meaning just like the forms that we see that have no meaning. The only meaning that they have are the meaning that we give them. So our thoughts are not different from the forms that we perceive and give meaning to. "They are like the things I see in this room." When we start to look at our thoughts and pay more attention to them we can see how they are all over the place, rapidly changing from one thing to another. Noting the thoughts that are crossing our mind is not an easy exercise for the mind that has not been trained to look at thoughts. In looking at our thoughts for this exercise we are asked not to "select only the thoughts you think are 'bad'. You will find if you train yourself to look at your thoughts, that they represent such a mixture that, in a sense, none of them can be called 'good' or 'bad'. That is why they do not mean anything." (1.5-7) What we want to consider today, is that they are neither good nor bad but simply that they don't mean anything. What we are trying to get to here is that underneath the thoughts we think we are thinking, are our real thoughts which we are not aware of. To become aware of our real thoughts we need to look at our meaningless thoughts and see them for what they really are....nothing. The point is that the thoughts we are thinking are not our real thoughts, whether they are good or bad thoughts is irrelevant to what is a real thought. So this begs the question of what are real thoughts? They are a reflection of the truth. They are thoughts that spring forth from the eternal Self and are thoughts of joy, love and the oneness of our being. The truth of who we are is behind these meaningless thoughts that we are thinking. Our thinking mind has covered over the truth because the ego has us focused on the seeming reality of this world. As we apply these lessons the thought system of the ego is being exposed. This is just the start of our mind training and you may find yourself judging and reacting to the exercises. But it does not matter. What is important in doing these exercises is not to require some kind of perfection of ourselves. It is not helpful to strain in doing them. To strain is to put the ego in charge of the undoing. Remember that all that is required is your willingness to look at your thoughts. Our part is to bring these thoughts to the light and the Holy Spirit will do the rest. Our part is not about undoing our egoic thought system. The reality is that the ego will never undo itself. The Holy Spirit in our right minds is the true Strength and Power in us that brings the correction. It is not helpful to drive yourself crazy trying to catch all of your thoughts. Do the exercise only as long as you don't feel strain. And try to suspend your judgment about all of this. Recognize that in this process the ego may get threatened and resist this exercise. Why? Because it is at risk of being undone by the power of our right mind. Our true Self remains unified as the love that we already are. There is nothing we need to achieve. Our part is simply to bring our attention to our thoughts. Jesus tells us that this is a major exercise that will be repeated in different form. "The aim here is to train you in the first steps toward the goal of separating the meaningless from the meaningful." (3.2) What thoughts do you cherish? We may cherish memories of good times, but we also cherish grievances, judgments, painful thoughts and thoughts of worthlessness. Obviously these are thoughts that hurt us so why do we keep them? Because they have come to define who we think we are and thus there is a pleasure we get even from thoughts we see as painful. Even the thoughts we think we like come with a hefty price tag, because they keep us rooted in the illusion. So while these thoughts do seem to have power over us, Jesus still tells us to consider that they are meaningless. "It is a first attempt in the long-range purpose of learning to see the meaningless as outside you, and the meaningful within." (3.3) What is meaningless is outside because what is outside is not real. Another way to see this is that behind what we call our mind with all its random thoughts is the real or spiritual mind that is still, unwavering and all-encompassing. This is what is within but is blocked by the mind that differentiates and takes pleasure in its own thoughts and loves its own uniqueness and special individual self even if the experience of that self is full of pain and suffering. Now our practice is in the beginning steps of letting go of this self identity by being the observer of it. It all starts with observing our thoughts. I was reading something that Regina Akers wrote that for me was very helpful with regard to the above idea of that which is outside and has no meaning and that which is inside. I include it here for your consideration. "The spiritual mind is beyond the human mind, and it does not work like the human mind at all. It is still and in acceptance of all experiences as a part of its Self. It separates nothing out. It asks nothing to be different than it is. It knows the difference between what is passing and unreal and that which is lasting and real. Therefore, it is always in joy and it remains unwavering. The spiritual mind is within. It is natural mind. It is blocked by human mind and perceived differences when human mind is given attention, but the moment one decides to lose interest in human mind, spiritual mind is again the lens through which one shall see and experience. The problem, if one can call it a problem, is that there is pleasure in listening to human mind, even if that pleasure is experienced as pain. The pleasure comes from the idea of being a separate and definable me. This idea has so much attraction, one will continue to engage the individual me or human mind, even if existence through that mind is complete and unending suffering. Release from attraction to human mind comes from willingness to let go of the desire to be a separate and individual me. If one continues to want the pleasure of being independent and separate, one will also continue to be attracted to the thoughts that come from the human (or ego) mind. Therefore, one's time is best spent giving focused willingness to dissolve out of the desire for me-hood and into acceptance of complete Self-awareness. This is the true purpose of all spiritual practice, regardless of the form. Any practice that does not come from the willingness to let go of me-hood is not true spiritual practice". This lesson is a first small step in realizing that we can start the process of looking at our thoughts and recognizing that we give them all the power that they seem to have. We can learn, through this process, that we can ultimately be released from the grip that they seem to have on our emotions and feelings and ultimately from the ego. We learn early in the text reading that "The Holy Spirit and the ego are the only choices open to you. God created one, and so you cannot eradicate it. You made the other, and so you can. Only what God creates is irreversible and unchangeable. What you made can always be changed because, when you do not think like God, you are not really thinking at all. Delusional ideas are not real thoughts, although you can believe in them. But you are wrong. The function of thought comes from God and is in God. As part of His Thought, you cannot think apart from Him. (T.5.V.6) We are also learning to become aware of how we have defined ourselves by the thoughts that we hold and the payoff we are getting from holding onto these thoughts. The ultimate payoff, of course, is that we maintain our separate identities in which we are heavily invested. Jesus explains that there are only two emotions. One is love, which is our inheritance, and the other is fear which we have made. As we learn to uncover our thoughts and be willing to give them over to the Holy Spirit, we make space for the love that we are to come through. Or another way of putting it is that when we uncover our ego thoughts, which are in our wrong mind, we make way for miracles. Regardless, the truth is that the Love that we are never changes, in spite of our thoughts. No matter how shameful, ugly, demeaning the thoughts seem to be, they are meaningless because the part of the mind that is thinking them is also meaningless. In the practice instructions we are told that "unlike the preceding ones, these exercises do not begin with the idea for the day. In these practice periods, begin with noting the thoughts that are crossing your mind for about a minute. Then apply the idea to them. If you are already aware of unhappy thoughts, use them as subjects for the idea. Do not however, select only the thoughts you think are 'bad'. You will find if you train yourself to look at your thoughts, that they represent such a mixture that, in a sense, none of them can be called 'good' or 'bad'. That is why they do not mean anything". Then we are told that "this is a major exercise" and it will be repeated from time to time albeit in different form. So from that we get the idea of its importance in our mind training. We are to learn to recognize that the meaningless is outside and the meaningful within but since there is nothing outside of our own mind, then nothing in form is meaningful including our own thoughts. Our thoughts are no different than other forms like the things in the room which don't mean anything. The only meaning is in content, not form. Our thoughts have actually put us into a state of mindlessness. Thus the ego has succeeded in blotting out of our awareness the content of God's Love. So now we see the world of form and the content of Love is buried beneath the form (our thoughts). That is why it is important that we learn to look at them and learn that we now have a choice. In that choice we can see that the source of our unhappiness and pain is not beyond our control. Love and blessings, Sarah
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