October

There are no correct experiences to have.  The well-being we have sought by trying to rearrange thoughts, feelings and sensations is always and already present as the seamless flow of everything that arises.

 ~ John Astin

October 1st

Resentment

To say that you are a person who is resentful is a story.  In the story, you are the main character who gets to focus on 'your' pain and 'your' story of how someone in 'your' past did you wrong.  It's all about you.   The story of resentment makes you feel morally right and justified in your pain, which in turn keeps the sense of separation and self-centeredness alive.

Enlightenment is not about "letting go" of resentments.  Enlightenment is seeing things the way they really are.  When resentment arises, that is what is happening.  Any movement to get rid of resentment is seeking.  Dreaming that you are a person who is resentful and who is going to get rid of resentment in the future perpetuates the dream self and keeps resentment around.  The dream self is not interested in being resentment-free.  It just wants to be separate.  To accomplish this, it keeps the story of time alive.  That includes the story of making resentment into a problem to get rid of over time.

In noticing the emotional pain and mental story of resentment as it arises, there is a seeing that you do not bring resentment about.  Therefore, you are not in control of when it leaves.  In that noticing, resentment is allowed to be exactly as it is without any movement to get rid of it.  It tends to diminish on its own when it's brought into this light.

Michael Brown

From PART V: 2. 

(Continuation...)

Not only did He set Himself up to publicly demonstrate the conscious cleaving of matter from spirit, of dying consciously, but He had Judas as a willing accomplice. This was because Judas was the only one He could trust to obediently carry out the required instructions. Judas, by His actions, also became one of the most profound examples of authentic facilitation when He embraced the role of the betrayer for all in time. Not until our humanity enters present moment awareness shall we collectively comprehend the magnitude of this act of bravery, love, and unfathomable compassion. The power of Judas' kiss on Jesus' cheek is incomprehensible in time. Like us, when we perceive our hidden fears mirrored for us, and therefore run from our initial request to be facilitated, religious organizations also do this by accusing Judas of being a betrayer.  

Chapter 86

The Unknown is the Home of the Real

Q: Must I search for the Guru, or shall I stay with whomever I have found?

M: The very question shows that you have not yet found one. As long as you have not realized, you will move from Guru to Guru, but when you have found yourself, the search will end. A Guru is a milestone. When you are on the move, you pass so many milestones. When you have reached your destination, it is the last alone that mattered. In reality all mattered at their own time and none matters now.