"Ania's Color For Your Day" 
 

Greetings!   

 few days ago, a friend called me 4 hours before our scheduled dinner
and asked me if its o.k if he will not come.
He just met a friend who has a birthday today
his friend invited him to dinner.
 
I said, "yes, of course, go and enjoy"
 
The top of the Flying Chest
 
As I put the phone down I realized that I felt
angry, hesitant, distant, surprised, uneasy, hurt, sad, disappointed,
heavy hearted, and jealous.
 
I understood,  that I needed consideration, belonging,
acceptance, respect and love.
Needs that were not met at that moment. 
.
It was very clear to me that my friend did not
want to hurt me.
 
I needed to look for a place in my self where
I could  find my needs.
 
As beggars we wait for our friends, children, parents
to fulfill our needs.
 
                 I knew that the only way is to find it in Me.
Go to the top, in the middle.
tune to the place which is still, quite and safe. 
BE there and breath wordless breaths.
BE....  
 
                
 
 The shift happened suddenly.
I realized that being there for our friend's changeable needs,
in the moment,
is only a preparation
for being available for Presence to enter.
 
Every thing needs to die in order for the new to enter.
 
 
 
 

                        "Go up, go
                        You have a strong strength
                     You have wings of spirit
                       Wing of eagles of knights
                      Don't deny them
                      As they will deny you
                     Ask for them
                         and they will be revealed."
                         "The lights of Holiness", Kabbalist Rabbi Kook. 

 

 with Love
Ania