Hilchot Teshuva
Based on a Naaleh.com shiur by Rabbi Shimon Isaacson
Parshat Shoftim begins with the verse, "Shoftim v'shotrim titen lecha bechol shearecha." Appoint judges and officers within all your gates. The Gemara says that courts had to be set up in every city in the land of Israel. Outside of the land, one court in every province sufficed. This raises a question. There were six cities of refuge. Three were located in Israel. The other three were outside of the land where only two and a half tribes lived. Crime was more common there, so more cities of refuge were needed. Why then did Hashem command that extra courts be set up in Israel? Shouldn't more courts function where more crime was committed?
The land of Israel cannot contain sin. It is the holiest country in the world and demands a higher standard. Therefore, there was a need for more judges and officers in order to maintain that heightened level.
Similarly, Chazal say about the period of Elul, "Dirshu Hashem b'himatzo." Seek Hashem when he is near. The forty days between Rosh Chodesh Elul and Yom Kippur are a time when Hashem is especially close to us. There is an elevated level of sanctity and therefore any breaches during this period are treated more seriously.
We say on Rosh Hashana "Alah Elokim b'teruah." Hashem ascends with the shofar blast. The Tur and the Bach explain that when Hashem hears the shofar we are elevated, and it raises Hashem too. How can we understand this? Isn't the Almighty perfect?
At the giving of the Torah, a marriage bond was created between Hashem and the Jewish people. The two tablets were the ring. The mountain was the wedding canopy. A relationship was formed that would never be severed. Any deep connection is only as strong as the weakest link. When we stray far from Hashem we create distance. When we come back to Him the bond is revived. Then Hashem rises up with us.
Elul is a time of hitchadshut, renewal. Chadash can mean two things, either something absolutely new or the same physical context with a fresh plan or vision. Perhaps one could say that the idea of rebirth in Elul is that we begin getting into the teshuva modality. Maybe we are not ready to destroy everything and rebuild again but we can start step by step.
Is Rosh Hashana a holiday of joy or awe? The Shulchan Aruch says one should eat, drink, and rejoice. Yet the Terumat Hadeshen says one can fast. The Shulchan Aruch says we can say Tzidkatcha in davening because it's not a yom tov in the classic sense. The Rama disagrees and says the custom is not to say it because it is a yom tov. The Rambam says these are days of joy but not excessive joy. The Gemara says that Hallel is not recited because the books of life and death are open before Hashem.
The shofar too has this dichotomy. On the one hand it reminds us of the joy of the giving of the Torah, the redemption, and the ultimate triumph of akeidat Yitzchak. On the other hand it commemorates the tears of Sisra's mother. The shofar is shaped in a bent and submissive fashion. It's meant to awaken us to repentance.
The prayers on Rosh Hashana reflect this paradox too. The most intense part of the Mussaf tefilah is Unetane Tokef. Yet the mood is soon transformed from fear to joy.
Rosh Hashana is not really a time of repentance. It's a day when we crown Hashem king. We don't say vidui or selichot because we cannot begin the process of teshuva before affirming that Hashem is our master. It's a frightening and awe inspiring day, but it's also a time when we recognize that Hashem loves and cares for us.
The Navi tells us, "Ivdu et Hashem b'yirah v'gilu bir'ada."Serve Hashem with fear and rejoice in trembling. Rosh Hashana is when we are meant to feel the pain of how far we've strayed. But at the same time if we can sense that intimate connection we have to Hashem, then we feel true joy.
In Elul we repent from the outside in. On Rosh Hashana we repent from the inside out. Elul is knocking down the building brick by brick. Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur is uprooting the foundation. As we proclaim Hashem king, we can reach into the depths of our souls and emerge transformed.
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