When Sarah Fenner was
diagnosed with breast cancer in 2002 she bought a small photo album and
transformed it into a "Chemotherapy
Siddur (prayer book)." She filled it with computer printouts of
blessings and poems that were meaningful to her and added cards from friends
and photos of people and places she loves. Intended as a personal

and creative
expression, the resulting product was powerfully compelling to the nurses, as
well as to fellow patients and the people who accompanied them to
treatments. What started as curiosity about this little book that Sarah held,
flipped through, read parts of, and had other people read aloud from was
quickly followed by a request,
"How can
I get one of those?"
In the
months and years that followed, Sarah would honor these requests, spending
hours cutting, pasting, assembling and mailing them out. As word of the "chemo
siddur" began to spread, an article about it appeared in the
New York Times as well as
the j. (the Jewish newspaper of Northern
California). Soon the project began to be overwhelming, and Sarah explored a variety
of options for manageable reproduction and distribution. Sarah, who is a
strong supporter of Jewish Milestones, asked if this was something we would
consider taking on. Honored and excited, we began to explore a wide variety of
options for content, format, and distribution, including a mock-up entitled
"Hineni-Here I Am: A Companion for
Chemotherapy."
Sarah's cancer has recently
returned. A new sense of urgency
in making the Chemo
Siddur a concrete expression of Sarah's multifaceted and
profound legacy has been ignited in us.
To learn
more about the creation of this new ritual object, and to find out how you can contribute to this
special project,
click here.