Marty L. Cooper, MFT
4831 Geary Blvd. San Francisco, CA 94118
martycooper@mlcooper.com
www.mlcooper.com
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April 2008 Vol. 1, Issue 10
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Greetings!
Spring! With occasional splashes of rain, and washes of fog, San Francisco is skipping into spring. While mood doesn't necessarily have to track weather, this weather we're getting is pretty, to coin a phrase, "happifying." I hope that your days are brightening and flowering, inside and out.
This issue of Tame Your Mood has an article about the mood-sapping confusion we can get into when asking ourselves certain questions. Dealing with anxiety and depression has a number of aspects, but a main one is simply (!) clarifying what one is doing in the moment. If one is crying in sadness, then letting it be as it is, and acknowledging it's reality, allows for the tears to take their course and actually lead to resolution.
The same with getting clear on the function of our questioning: are we crying, or are we asking?
Be well, Marty
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The Magic Well: Letting the universe answer the questions (for a change)
Have you noticed asking questions of yourself, like, "Am I good
enough?" or, "Is this all useless?" and then wondering why the answers
are so elusive?
A colleague who traveled in Asia for a while once told me this story:
I
was in Thailand, in the North where there was a lot of fogged in days,
at least up in the mountains. My mood was really getting affected
after a while. I was bummed out much of the day, and noticed myself
walking around the forest thinking, 'Why can't I shake this malaise?'
The question repeated over and over, and I'd struggle with it like a
Zen koan, and just feel worse that I was apparently too stupid to
figure out the answer.
Then one day, walking back from a
dismal hike, coming through the gate of the village I was living in, I
asked the question again, but for some reason it seemed to actually
come out as a question. The difference was like, 'Hmm,
I wonder what's keeping this in place?' Which may sound similar, but
there was a part of me that came online, a rational, data-driven place
that, when it showed up, backlit
what had been going on. That I'd been actually saying, 'I'm
miserable,' but in the cloak of a question. When the cloak dropped
off, the answers came quickly and without a lot of struggle. Like,
'Oh, duh, it's been foggy and I always get low when there's not enough
sunlight. And I'm eating poorly and am far from home. Oh!' And then
the solutions came quickly and with that clarity I could actually take
action. But it required getting clear what was a question, and what
was me saying, 'Ow!'" So, what's this about? Basically, perseveration
and rumination are two of the forces that drive and support anxiety and
depression. Like my colleague's question, they often take the form of
asking without really asking. These questions are
sentences that do, indeed, seem to end with a question mark, and yet
are not actually taken up as real questions, meaning, as inquiry which
goes through a process towards either being answered, or towards tossing out the question as illegitimate. That's how real questioning happens.
The problem my colleague illustrated is that we think we're in that
process, but are asking questions that in actuality are
statements of feeling combined with a fear-based desire to find a
little control.
These, then, are questions without answers,
because they are not actual inquiry. And this is the dilemma, that when
we forget what we're actually doing (stating a feeling and desire vs.
practicing inquiry) is not questioning, then when we don't come up with
an answer, it's taken as a sign of danger. Then we try "asking" again,
trying to find a way to feel safety and control, and with no solid
answer coming, we zip around the track yet again. And depending on the
question, it's naturally going to be either depressing or anxiety
provoking to not come up with an answer or solution.
There is certainly no problem with saying that we're hurting; the more direct that recognition and statment is the better. The problem is in the confusion between "Ow," and "Oh!"
There
are a few ways out of this loop, and I'll offer an exercise below for
one way, emphasizing acceptance and openness. I'm calling it the Magic
Well, as it's a visualization involving...can you guess?
Closing
your eyes, imagine you are in a safe, protected field of grass. It's
sunny, mild, a pretty nice place to be. (Change the place if you need
to, so long as the felt-sense is one of comfort and
safety/peacefulness.)
Now, you see an old fashion well there a
little bit in front of you. It has stones around the edge (you won't
fall in). This is a magic well, but you have to read the plaque on the
side to understand what kind of magic.
So, what you need to do
is think of a question you want answered, and imagine it as having
form, and resting in your upturned palms. Whatever feels like it's
natural form, pretty or not so pretty, is just fine.
Now, with
your question formed, you walk up to the well and read the plaque:
"This is a magic well. It's magic because it will answer your questions.
However, it only answers on it's own schedule. Your job is to ask, and then
step back with an open patience. The Magic Well's job is to answer."
The
well is deep, and you step forward and tip the question gently off your
hands to drop down into the darkness. Now you step back and practice
the patience of waiting, knowing that eventually, and appropriately,
the answer will return to you.
Good work!
For
some people, this exercise feels like a relief; for other, letting go
of the question, giving it over to the universe, or a deeper part of
ourselves (however one thinks about where it goes) causes anxiety. Any
reaction is fine. This is an exercise in asking a question
differently, and implicitly in developing trust that the answer is
known already, in oneself, in the ether, in the mind of God, and that
openness will provide the information better than insistence.
Notice
that, in the example of my colleague, his shift in questioning led to a
more active problem solving stance. But it started with an openness of
questioning, a real curiosity or wondering. The Magic Well is asking with a big openness, allowing something larger to do the answering.
So
experiment with what approach seems to work with which question
(radical openness, problem solving, etc.), but keep in mind that the
starting point is opening to getting a real answer, and that you don't initially know what it will be, but trusting (more and more!) that it will be OK. |
Recent Online Articles
"Goal Setting: A method to clarfiy the process" (Mar. 10th, 2008)--A four part process both to set goals, and to clarify the different approaches to each step. Click here.
(Past articles can be found on my articles page by clicking here.)
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About Marty
 Marty Cooper is a San Francisco psychotherapist who helps individuals struggling with anxiety and depression to not only manage these "wild moods," but eventually learn how to overcome them. His background in both Western approaches to healing, as well as Eastern mindfulness practices (meditation) give a wide range of perspectives and techniques to bring to the work of taming mood.
Marty's passion arises out of his deep understanding of how painful anxiety and depression can be, and his wish to help others learn how to avoid overwhelm, as well as to find meaning in experience that can otherwise at times just seem pointless.
Joy, connection, and a life not ruled by fear are all truly possible.
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EMDR
So, what is EMDR? EMDR stands for "Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing," and is an extremely effective, evidence-based, way of working with trauma, that can lead to a full recovery from post traumatic symptoms, in some cases within a few sessions. Even very old, entrenched sufferings can be loosened and removed. People really do experience freedom from beliefs and pains that have pained them for decades.
But EMDR is also effective for clearing old memories that are not overt traumas. For instance, issues such as phobias, stuck patterns in relationships, general anxiety and depression, all can be helped with the targeted use of EMDR. Sometimes, because of the more "systemic" quality of these issues, more time and sessions are needed, but the results can still be remarkable and deep.
If you are interested in more information, you can look at the information on my website (click here), or feel free to give me a call.
(For a fuller introduction to EMDR, Transforming Trauma by Laurel Parnell, is a great place to start. Click here.)
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Services
I offer psychotherapy to those who are wanting to learn deeper and more effective management strategies for their anxiety and depression, as well those who wish to find out how to overcome these wild moods. I work comprehensively with mental, emotional, bodily, and spiritual dimensions, all of which are necessary to overcome the chronic quality of anxiety and depression.
If
you are looking to make changes that last, then please call me and set up an initial phone consultation, so we can see if or how I can best be of service.
Marty L. Cooper, MFT 415.835.2162 martycooper@mlcooper.com
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