
Documentary Magazine - cover story
Breaking the Sound Barrier: 'See What I'm Saying' Celebrates Deaf
Entertainers by Claire Walla
As we follow Robert DeMayo through the streets and subways of
Manhattan's Upper West
Side, the world suddenly changes. Some things, like the construction
site DeMayo passes on Broadway, emit nothing more than a low
rumble--what you might hear if your ears were submerged under water--and
it's as if everything else has been put on mute. This includes the
squealing baby
DeMayo sits beside on the subway, and it includes the voice that comes
over the loudspeaker to announce the train's next stop.
In this world without sound, we know what the voice on the
subway is saying because we're watching a movie with captions; but,
DeMayo is not.
As one of nearly 30 million members of the American deaf community,
DeMayo experiences this world on a daily basis--and filmmaker Hilari
Scarl wants you to experience it, too.
See What I'm Saying,
which
premieres March 18 at the Egyptian Theatre in Los Angeles, follows a
year in the lives of four deaf entertainers--comedian CJ Jones, drummer
Bob Hilterman, singer TL Forsberg and actor Robert DeMayo--as they
struggle to nudge their ways into mainstream media and gain recognition
for their talents. This is a community of people that is widely
overlooked, Scarl says, and, more importantly, largely misunderstood.
"When I moved to Los Angeles and started working in television, I
noticed that there were no deaf actors getting hired," she recalls (She
has produced programming for CBS, History, TLC and Court TV). Or, if
they were hired, it was for roles written specifically for deaf
characters.
CJ Jones, featured in Hilari Scarl's See
What I'm Saying.
See What I'm Saying is an attempt to bridge the divide between
the deaf community and the hearing world. "I want to change people's
misconceptions," she says.
Part of this effort manifests itself in the film's production
technique--like, for example, in the scene described above. "A lot of
filmmakers in the past have incorrectly given the point of view of a
deaf person by turning the sound off, when, actually, that's the
experience for some deaf people, but not all deaf people," Scarl
explains. DeMayo worked very closely with the film's sound supervisor,
Joe Milner, to convey the subtleties of the audio he actually does take
in.
Scarl further enhances a sense of intimacy between the characters and
the audience by using a single, hand-held camera (often operated by the
director herself) to follow each character through his or her daily
routine. "I knew it was really important for me to tell these stories
from their perspective," Scarl maintains. "Their community has been
misrepresented by so many people who have tried to communicate it
from a hearing person's vantage point."
Though Scarl herself is not deaf, her ties to the deaf community stem
back nearly two decades to when she saw her first deaf performance,
staged by the New York Deaf Theatre. "It blew my mind," she recalls.
"The art is so powerful. It's a three-dimensional display of emotion
through sign language, which makes the actors' performances really come
through."
This experience prompted Scarl to audition for the National Theatre
of the Deaf (NTD), with which she ended up touring for over a year. The
experience "changed my life," she says, and planted the initial seeds
for See What I'm Saying. "I got absorbed into the company"--which
was made up of 17 other deaf actors, including DeMayo--"so I got to
experience life through their eyes." Scarl was inspired by the strong
bond that connected members of the deaf community, but she was also
appalled by how her fellow actors were treated in public. "For instance,
we would go to a restaurant and I would watch as the waiters would
treat them like they were invisible. They would turn to me and ask,
'What do they want?' And I
would say, 'I don't know! Why don't you ask them?'"
Scarl began production on the documentary in 2007, the same year she
became a semi-finalist for Steven Spielberg's production-based reality
show competition On the Lot. Though Scarl did not make it to the
finals, she used her "15 minutes of fame" to start raising funds for
the documentary, and ultimately secured about $8,000. This, in addition
to charges made to her
personal credit cards, helped jump-start the rest of the shoot, which,
in the end, amounted to interviews with 50 deaf performers, clocking in
at 300 hours of footage and 700 pages of transcribed audio--all
translated by Scarl, who is fluent in American Sign Language.
Hilari Scarl, director/producer of See
What I'm Saying.
Microsoft eventually signed on as a sponsor, covering all the
expenses to make this the first American open-caption commercial film in
history. And Sprint, which provides translation for the deaf community,
called Video Relay Service, is financing the film's red carpet
premiere, March 18 at the
Egyptian Theatre in Los Angeles. Sprint has also partnered with the film
for a 25-city tour that will hit 400 mainstream screens across the
country.
Given the scope of the production, Scarl sought out Sandra Ruch,
former executive director at IDA, who, with the help of various focus
groups, managed to whittle the narrative down to the four storylines
that most resonated with test audiences.
While the overall arc of the story centers on two major events--the
first International Sign Language Theatre Festival in Los Angeles,
staged by Jones; and a live performance by Beethoven's Nightmare, "the
world's only deaf rock band," fronted by Hilterman--each character faces
poignant personal issues over the course of the film. For example,
Forsberg, who is technically "hard of hearing," struggles with her
identity when she is told by music producers that she is "not deaf
enough," and DeMayo, a deaf actor who struggles to find part-time work
in between acting gigs, ends up living on the streets when he can no
longer afford to pay rent.
The latter issue posed a particularly difficult situation for Scarl,
who wanted to document DeMayo's experience, but, having worked alongside
the actor professionally and having maintained a friendship with him
over the years, found it difficult to remain an objective observer.
"When I
showed up to film him, he was living on the streets in Philadelphia and
going through a really rough time," Scarl explains. "After a couple of
hours of filming, I actually brought him back to my hotel room. That was
one of the times I broke that boundary between friendship and working
relationship. I would have had a very difficult time coming back to this
hotel room while my
friend was sleeping on the streets."
Robert DeMayo, featured in Hilari Scarl's See
What I'm Saying.
Photo: Chris Voelker
However, Scarl insists that this didn't affect the integrity of the
film. "I was still able to document what was happening and tell his
story truthfully," she says.
In the end, this is what she's most proud of. The film has won
several prestigious awards--including top documentary honors at the
Philadelphia Film Festival and the Newport Beach Film Festival, as well
as the Grand Jury Award and the Audience Award at the D.C. ASL Film
Festival--but Scarl says she is just deeply honored knowing that members
of the deaf community actually feel like their story is getting told.
Claire Walla is a New York-based freelance writer whose work has
been published by the likes of American Cinematographer and
VanityFair.com.

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