Drum roll please.......... I am beyond excited and deeply grateful to share that... I am going to be a MOM! Our baby is due to arrive mid-July.
Am I really going to be a mom?! Yes! Am I excited? Yes! Am I grateful? Yes!! Do I have fears? YES! Isn't it funny how we create what we want and then there is this little voice that says "oh crap, now what?"
Can I really do it all? Will I always be exhausted? How will parenthood impact the harmony of my relationship? How will I balance the demands of my business "baby" and my real-life, crying-in-the-next-room, needs-a-diaper-change-NOW baby?
All these fears are real, but I am up for the challenge. Experience has taught me that manifesting dreams is not always easy, but
the commitment to move through the fear and go for the dream can far outweigh the uncertainty and insecurities that we experience along the way."Never give up on your dreams"
Our dream of becoming parents did not come as easily as we expected. My maternal instincts did not kick in until I was 38. Before that I was far too busy achieving, learning, and enjoying my independence, freedom and professional success.
During the height of my success, I found myself struggling personally. I was engaged to be married, but I was ambivalent about this next step.
Something was missing. Deciding not to settle, and mustering up all the inner courage I had, we took a break from the relationship. I dived into a deep process of self discovery, guided by the question:
Why am I not creating what I want in my life? As it turns out, we often have to face our dark side head on, becoming aware of unconscious fears and sabotaging behaviors that keep us from having what we REALLY want in life. Looking back, I see this was a journey from
success to inner fulfillment - something I regularly coach clients on today.
Through this challenging, "turn my life upside down, face the good, bad and the ugly" kind of journey, I found an inner peace and came to realize a deeper dream than professional success and marital bliss:
I also wanted to be a mom. Brian and I reunited and re-established a loving, committed relationship. We bought our dream home and started our journey to parenthood. After five years of uncertainty, including 3 years of heart-wrenching fertility treatments (
did I say the journey is not always easy?!), we are finally going to be parents.
What I know for sure is that living the life of your dreams is truly possible.
Setbacks will happen and it will not always be easy, but when we keep the vision, access our inner courage and take action, so much is possible. I invite you to follow me on
my blog as I continue to do my best to walk this path of fulfillment and transition from entrepreneur to MOMpreneur.
In support of your success!