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Beyond Broken Dreams
by Linda Rooks
As I wake from a brief, unsettled sleep, the tension gripping my body draws me back to the shadowy stillness of the bedroom and the sense that something is wrong. What is the nightmare still clinging to my mind? I close my eyes again, the dark dread growing inside me. Even without looking, I feel the empty space in the bed stretching out beside me in the dark.
This isn't a dream. This nightmare is real.
I fight back the encroaching fear threatening to overtake me. Then the floodgates open and memories rush in. He's left me. I am alone. How could he do this to me? How could he actually leave me?
But he has, Linda. He has left you. The memory of a friend's words from the day before pierce my heart. My body trembles. I feel myself sinking into a dark hole. He has left you. Inside my head the tension grows like a balloon filling too rapidly, stretching to the breaking point. I cry out - terrible sobs breaking from the deep caverns of my soul.
That's how the day would often begin for me. Chances are you've been there. Perhaps you're there now, maybe not because your husband physically walked out the door, but because, in one way or another, he has left you emotionally. It could be another woman, an irrational anger that has closed the doors of his heart, or an eternity of nights when the silence between you gnaws relentlessly at your insides.
You know the pain I'm talking about, and you're looking for a way out. You're looking for hope.
To be continued... Content for this article comes entirely from the book Broken Heart On Hold by Linda Rooks. Published by Integrity Publishing. | 
