It is that we speak to of releasing, of letting go of the need to know, to understand the why's of the complexities you so do want to intellectualize. You worry much to understand the meanings, the why's and the wherefore's, the making sense of that which limits only your understanding even more.
Know that you know on a level of understanding much deeper than simple awareness. Know that your soul understands and knows that which it is you are doing. Release the need to control that which is in and not in, your life at the moment, and simply breathe...and know and relax into the void of not-knowing. The depth of non-understanding, the great knowledge of unending silencing of the intellect.
You come, not to conquer or control or even to know, to calculate, only to remember the stillness of whence you come and enable that into your creative ability where you now abide. To grow in experience, to individuate that part of your soul that wishes that experience here where you are.
This does not then require that you use the mind of the intellect to constantly measure what it is that must be done next to enact that experience on earth, for in doing so, you do limit that experience, that evolution of creation.
Your desires are many, but they are limited in scope and calculation by your mind's eye when it is within the worldly context. You must trust that your soul was well advised when it made the decision to journey forth and is equipped with an understanding and capability less limited than mere intellect as you know it now.
Rely on your deeper knowing, not on surface evidence of your progress and your limitations of experienced desires. Your longing is encompassed by limitation of awareness, know that you have greater abilities to be unleashed, greater desires to fulfill, though they may look and smell different from those you now know of that you feel strongly you must own.
Do not fight with the ego in a turf war of who shall win the prize, let it alone, the ego is subdued by nonchalant ignoring of it. It becomes meek and recedes to serve it's purpose, rather than to puff itself up in grandeur and impede your life's ongoing plan for evolution. Ego dictates that it must unfold in such and such a way....greater knowingness waits for the unfolding of a higher plan, formed when your soul was in creation mode without the weight of ego to drag it down.
The ego is not the enemy when put in it's place and utilized for necessity, but becomes outrageous and obstreperous when allowed to be in it's own devices and overstep it's bounds.
Plans made from ego denounce the greater part of who you are, appealing as those plans may seem to be....logical as they seem to be. The seed within the ego's desire is true and will be carried forth grandly when not interfered with, but when ego takes that desire as it's own, it parodies it and mutates it to something quite different though beautiful to the worldly eye.
This is not to say the seed of the desire is bad, only that it must not be experimented with by the ego, but left alone to blossom within the soul's plan. This plan is not so different but is greater and grander than the ego's imaginings and when allowed to grow uninterrupted by intellect, brings to fruition a greater course of desire with more magnificent outcome.
Trust in your soul's knowing in conjunction with the Divine. All things are working toward goodness, if you but put yourself in the flow and do not row against the tide. Though the tide be mighty, it will not swallow you up, if you fight not against it, but will instead bear you up higher, to the crest of the wave that delivers you safely to the shore of greater destiny.
Destiny is not a dirty word meant to convince you to succumb to resignation. It is your true calling, decided by no one but you. Yet not the small version of yourself known through identification with personality, but with the larger, greater part of you that is your soul. This does not mean you are destined to suffer or experience great hardship, though that may have been an aspect of choice in the original plan. There is always room and spots for adjustment, yet if you are busily fighting from fear some frightful future, you cannot allow those points of change to open that you may choose, so as to alter that outline.
This is why choice is always best made from a place of peace, for greater options and possibilities are made available to those not in the midst of the frey. Flow along without the tension of sustaining yourself against imagined harm, knowing the design always allows for an easier access point if you are in fluidity and not restraint.
Do not imagine this means the end of planning, yet it does mean bull dog attachment to a specific plan does not serve. An outline, you planned before you came to your place of enactment, one that was flexible, breathable, moldable, why should not there be the same flexibility in any plan you forge here where you abide now?
Breathe into those uncomfortable stiff places in your body, breathe into those uncomfortable stiff places of non-allowance in your mind, fill up your heart with trust in the flow of gracious awareness constantly being delivered to you when you remain open to it's alteration of design.
Intend, believe, allow, flow, detour with flexibility. There is not only one road to your greater destination, but many. You came forward with courage, willing to experience any or several roads as an individual expression of Divine remembering.
We wish you experience the infinity beyond your imaginings....Amen
