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September/ October 2010Issue No. 9
MuseLetter
Inspired Self-Expression             
 
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The Urban Goddess MuseLetter is a bi-monthly publication providing inquiry, inspiration, community and support for all those committed to creative, authentic and unbridled self-expression.
 
Exploring native intelligence, creativity, non-duality, imagination, diversity, art, love, vulnerability and other real life stuff. 
Has Anyone Seen My Husband? Actually, I'm still single, but now that I have your attention...
 
Today is my 58th birthday. Not that this is particularly newsworthy, mind you, nor am I vying for well wishes, but birthdays are, indeed, a rite of passage; the one day out of every year that marks our arrival into this complex world. That's significant in my opinion. And now that I'm just two years shy of the milestone of sixty, I have been brought to a new vista of thoughtful self-reflection. 
 
woman napping w dog
But no matter the age, birthdays are worthy  
celebration, and particularly those marking
a new decade. I turned thirty in Singapore,
forty in Paris, I had planned on turning fifty
in Morocco, but defaulted and ended up celebrating in Dallas instead. By no means tragic, exactly, but I sure missed my target.
And frankly, I've missed quite a few since
then as well. My aim is off. My mojo is waning.
The centripetal force of spinning earth has pulled me into deep-center. I take a lot of naps.
    
What has changed?
 
I am not young enough to know everything.
- Oscar Wilde
 
Some changes have been sublime and delicate; others have been weighty and unsettling. And it is true that with every passing year, there is a fading need to "know". The task becomes less about a quest for acknowledge, and more about tapping into the intelligence of a profoundly edifying internal root system: seeking your own center, your own voice, your own counsel. And contrary to what popular culture tells us, mindful "self-centeredness" enables us to be more fully accessible and empathetic to the needs and well-being of others. 
 
As Hugh Leavell states in his essay, Healthy Self-Centeredness, "The balanced self does not insist on universal predominance, but maintains his own center and lives from that place. He is at home within his subjectivity, mindful of others but filtering all perceptions through a lens uniquely his own."
 
And, without doubt, there is only one way we arrive at such balance and 
awareness; via the inexplicable and ever-changing passage of time.
 
 To be interested in the changing season 
is a happier state of mind than to be
hopelessly in love with spring. 
- George Santayana 
 
Ducks in a row b&w
 
I recently had lunch with a lovely friend in her late thirties. She is what anyone would call very together, ambitious, successful, meticulous; I'd say she pretty much has her entire life all planned out. Me, well, let's just say that my path is a bit more circuitous. Anyway, after inquiring about one of my stories that truly has no end, (simply because I haven't gotten there yet) she began anxiously tapping her wine glass with a bright red fingernail as though subconsciously
replicating the ticking of her own biological clock. I realize that I can be a challenging mirror at times, not that her life will ever remotely look like mine, but I do embrace and personify the "Expect the Unexpected" premise in life.
 
After her painfully generous attempt to coach me OUT of this disquieting place of uncertainty and suspension, I took her hand and in a sincere gesture of appreciation, simply stated: "There are no Neat Tidy Boxes big enough to hold
all the messiness of life, and no matter how many ducks we get in a row, they will all eventually fly away." And quoting Bhagwan Rajneesh, I added...
 
"I am not going to give you a destination. I can only give you a direction - awake, throbbing with life, unknown,
 always surprising, unpredictable."
 
Unpredictable, indeed, and no matter how masterfully we plan or 'visualize' our future, the road ahead is always changing, always surprising, always unknown.
 
birthday 60 couple
I read an interesting study in Health News Digest recently on women and aging; it affirmed that women approaching thirty are twice as likely to feel anxious about their milestone birthday as women approaching sixty. I am absolutely certain that this is true, and would assume true for men as well. And though America is still absurdly youth-obsessed, as Baby Boomers march  toward retirement this will change significantly and it is
up to each of us to dismantle this cultural fixation.
 
There is a wonderful geological term called, "Desert Varnish". Technically, it is biogeochemical phenomena produced by bacteria living on rock surfaces that take tens of thousands of years to form. In layman's terms, desert varnish is simply a lustrous ''patina" that nothing but wind, sun and time can bring. And so it is with aging.
 
There is something laudable and illuminating about the passage of time; it can hone and temper or it can shatter and embitter us. How, then, do we approach uncertain tomorrows with poise and grace? When all is said and done, we must accept the inevitability of loss and choose to grow older with feisty grace and wit. The willingness to 'sit still' in the face of uncertainty and change ... always brings its gifts.
 
 Barn's burnt down - now I can see the moon.
 - Masahide, Japanese poet 
 
  full moon grass 
  
In closing, I would love to hear from you: how you feel about aging, the state of your life, your hopes, your dreams, your fears and conundrums.
 
And by the way, as for that 'still single' comment in the heading, if you know a fella with a fine desert varnish, who's got his head in the stars and his feet on the ground... send'im my way.
  
 From my heart to yours,
Robyn Lark Wakefield
 
 
214.381.1255
 
The contents of this newsletter may incite euphoria, uncertainty, heightened self-confidence and/or doubt. The author/editor is not a Medical Doctor, Licensed Psychologist or Ordained Minister. Matter of fact, she was required to take two years of Related Math in college and still doesn't know her multiplication tables.
 
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