Wow! Have you ever spent a lot of time working on something that you felt you were 'so done with it', only to find out you weren't?
Over the last year while working through some things that changed my mindset about my value I thought I had really gotten clear and broken through all that was there. But, if I had, I would have been getting even more of the results that I want to go with that breakthrough. Like trying to complete a puzzle only to realize upon closer inspection you missed one of the pieces to make the picture complete.
Now, don't get me wrong, I've been getting really good results. I've had a desire for greater results though and I thought I was ready for them, only to find out that part of me wasn't.
Only recently, I 'discovered' a part of me that didn't want to be seen or revealed was lurking in the background as I tried to move forward. This was a part of me that had not realized my true value and I was feeling the discomfort of it being discovered. Do you ever have that sinking feeling that something deep inside of you is blocking you, hiding out within you, causing you stress that you can't see but can certainly feel?
I did, and it was still holding me back!
This part was hidden even to me. I only found it through some realizations that occurred to me recently. Like a stubborn child, it didn't want to be found because it didn't want to heal. This is what our subconscious minds can do to us. They are programmed to think, act and believe a certain way, based on their experiences. And, just like a computer program, they are programmed to keep acting that same way, even if the rest of you changes. You have to shed light on them and help them heal or shift their energy so you can move past it more easily when you recognize the dynamics.
It felt threatened; this part of me felt like, if I was accepted by others and cared that I was accepted, that I would give in to that need for acceptance and not honor my own truth. Like there would be conditions to that acceptance and I would accept those conditions despite my best interests. I've grown way past that. This was a program created in childhood. I no longer feel the need to compromise myself in order to be accepted, but this part of me didn't know that.
This part of me experienced rejection and isolation in childhood when I honored and stood true to my own needs, so it felt like that was still what would happen when standing in my truth now. That part of me experienced a lot of pain in that rejection. It also felt like I opted for depression and not to feel my feelings in order to not be vulnerable to getting hurt again.
It was like I was in a double-bind. I wanted to heal this part of me that felt rejected and didn't fully feel my value, yet it was avoiding being found and didn't want to be exposed because it felt that depression was necessary to not be vulnerable and feel pressured to avoid feeling pain.
I didn't have to make that choice any longer, that is certain, but somehow my unconscious mind felt that it did and related feeling good and valuing myself highly with giving up my integrity.
So, no matter how great I felt about myself and my work, there was part of me that was resisting the shift because it feared that I would compromise myself if cared again.
So, I have worked through many fears and made big leaps in my growth this past year but here was this thing holding me back. And, it wasn't showing up doing anything; it was just quietly vibrating a lower vibration than the rest of me. But it stood in the way of the results that I desired. Something just didn't resonate fully when I spoke with prospects about my services and my value because there was this hidden part of me that didn't believe it.
Of course, this makes no sense to our conscious minds. That's the thing-our unconscious and limiting beliefs never make conscious sense. And, often we are not even conscious of what programs our unconscious minds are running in our lives. I do this kind of work (assisting clients find those unconscious beliefs that limit success, happiness and growth) for a living and it still took a while to discover this hidden part of me.
Do you ever feel a part of you is holding you back from the results you desire?
Maybe you believe that you're so in sync with your services or products and they are such a great deal. But, do you get the results that you expect? Do others feel the value of your services and products when you speak to them?
The way you can tell whether you are still 'at odds' with yourself is by the results that are showing up in your life. That information was telling me that I still had something to work through on this.
I'm sharing with you in case you still have unconscious programs running in your life that you want to uncover. Just know that they are insidious and can be a little slippery and wily sometimes.
If you need to work through limiting beliefs and you need some help with it, set up a time to talk with me.
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Some of you may be able to work through things on your own once you shine the light on it. But, don't let it take too long to live the life you desire. If it holds you back for months, a year or a few years, how much lost revenue could that add up to?
We can talk and see if my class series or new Mastermind Group or individual work with me might be the answer for you.
I'll let you know how it goes. Are you a Pyramid or a Tiger? That's the only clue for now. :)
